Ripping up flowers
Tearing off petals
Shooting down stars
Watching them fall
Snatching up broken dreams
Burying them all

Six feet under
I hope my tears
Drown out the sound
Echoing in your ears
Of screaming and pleading
For all these years

Overgrown weeds
And heavy grey clouds
Even shadows have shadows
Guess everyone has a past

Threw my penny into the well
Well, I guess that didn’t end up too well.
It’s like you were Jack and I was Jill
But it wasn’t Jill who took the spill

It was jack who fell
Under the spell
Of that little girl Jill
Who had the best will

And intentions
Full of questions
Bright eyed
And engaging
Optimistically waiting

For the right guy
To happen on by
Well once she met Jack
She never looked back
And that was that
A fairytale ending

Except that wishing well
Went straight to hell
And that water was poisoned
That penny corroded

Exposing the truth
The ignorance of youth
You weren’t all you seemed
A wolf in sheep’s clothing
Bursting at the seams

The real you came through
But that’s old news

What’s worse is I stayed

Even though day after day
It all was the same
Routine
You think
I would have learned

But I didn’t
And you were only acquitted
When death finally admitted
You to its domain
I hope it rains
Every day
Over your **** grave

And that the most beautiful flowers
Grow just out of reach
Not visible between weeds

And that when the leaves change
And the snow falls
You’re left with nothing
Nothing at all
But the miserable company
Of what’s left of your “love” for me.

Maybe you were the ocean,
When I was just a storm
Never meant to be here
For very long.

Experiential seeker
Live in the moment sort of believer
Capture the essence, capture the feeling
What is the story, what is the meaning?
Ephemeral and fleeting
Such is the world through eyes of human beings
But just for a minute forget what you're seeing
Embrace this pure and unadulterated freedom
Now give up control, your conscience is leaving!!

Turn the music up till my ears ring,
till I cant hear myself sing,
scream,
at the top of my lungs,
can't deal anymore I'm done.

One,
more time,
you say give it one more try,
well sorry not tonight,
cause I'm already gone,
been at this **** for way too long.

So baby rev up the engine,
step on the gas,
turn the radio up
till it shakes the ******* glass.

In the rearview,
flashing blue lights,
knock me off this high,
******* killed my vibe.

Won't come back down,
no I won't slow down,
tires squealing peal out,
heart pounding so loud.

Adrenaline,
again again,
can't get enough,
I lied I really give a ****.

Come back to me,
dear sweet ecstasy,
I crave you like a drug,
coursing through me in my blood.

Let's throw our hands up,
in playful surrender,
give in to the 5-0,
give up everything we know.

Let them think we've changed our minds,
then jump in the car and leave it all behind,
you're all I need and I'm all you've got,
so what do you say; give it one more shot?

Spiraling down
now
out of control.

Into the darkness
looming below.

Glimpses of starlight,
sunshine,
and gold.

Moments of life
and purpose
arose.

Gave me the strength
to carry on.
Found me a singer
to my life's song.

These times of perfetion,
so well played out,
in sync with the worthless,
thoughts of doubt.

Is this what it's like?
Is that what it could be?
Or am I meant to sit here
left out and dreary?

Climbing the staircase,
taking my time.
Counting them each,
as they arise.

Coming undone
'cause these steps lead nowhere.
I need fresh air,
breathing in failure.

Can this opportunity even compare?
I'm walking,
but barely,
across thin air.

The railing's gone,
no safety net.
I'm life's cruel joke,
a burnt out cigarette.

Trying to move on,
having regrets.
But all new beginnings
start with an end.