You are my greatest reality.
Know why?
Because you are reassuring.
You are not complex, simply because you choose not to be.
I know that when I’m angry at you, It’s probably my fault.
Because you were just being you.
And I love that.
So why should I be mad?
Then I’m not.
When I’m living life,
And we’re living life,
And you stop for a second and smile my way
Or gently touch my hand,
Or my arm,
It hurts my heart
In the best of ways.
I guess people call that feeling “Longing”
Because I feel so overwhelmed by you
And overwhelmed by the feeling that I want to make you feel that longing too.
But who knows if I do.
I hope I do.
Please Don’t ever think that I am trying to be “Needy”.
Because I’m not.
It’s not that I need you
Ok, that sounds terrible, but I think you understand.
It’s just that I can need you. So I do.
You fuel me
You inspire me
You encourage me
You let me be myself to you.
You even said that you prefer when I do so.
That’s crazy.
You are like a cup of good coffee.
Maybe not...
I prefer you over coffee any day.
Although I might get pretty grumpy without it.
But then again I’d be even more grumpy without you.
Anyway,
I think that we make a good team, and you are my best friend.
So that’s a plus.
I hope that you always know how insanely special you are to me.
Sometimes I think what it would be like if I was with someone else.
Or if you were with someone else.
If you and I were only a little bit friends.
And I hate that.
It makes my stomach hurt.
And I get all teary-eyed
Because you are my missing puzzle piece.
And I think God did that on purpose.
I know He did.
And an incomplete puzzle gets thrown out.
Or donated to Goodwill
And that place smells weird.
Like, super weird.
You of all people know that I wouldn't survive very long.
In a place that smells weird.
So I hope that someday God will allow us to be together.
In a forever kind of way.
I would really love that.
But for now,
I am so deeply in like with you.
And I thank you.
For being you.
And always putting up with me.
And most of all, for always leading me.
I will follow you wherever you lead me.
Because I know that you will follow God wherever He leads you.
And that is the greatest reality I could ever in my life time ask for.
That's all.