I just really wanted it. Wanted it to be you.
With all your flaws, with all your so said “imperfections” (which I just could not see none).
I could not see because you were everything within nothing. You were the light within the dark and the circle between all the lines.
The outstanding tulip.
As I’ve just imagined in therapy months ago before you.
Maybe that tulip was not even me.  
Maybe it was you all along. Maybe it was you since I started craving love.
We’ve waited for so long, haven’t we?
23 years for you and twenty-two for me.
But it was all for nothing.
‘ Cause as we came it was the same way as we gone. Suddenly. Just moments…just idyllic pictures of the two of us being together for eternity because we were made for each other.
“The match made in heaven”, remember?
God, I just miss you and I don’t even know if you miss me too or even just think about me sometimes.
I mean I indeed think about you.
Almost every second.
You are just in my every move, every breath, every heartbeat, every draft of thoughts, every blink.
I just love you so much, wish you could have loved me back.
So please, just disappear.
Please let me live.
I have to do this alone.
I have to go.
I have to love myself in the first place so I can love somebody else in the second, when its time. But that time is not now and I can accept that.
I an good like this. Lonely, you know. It’s easier…the grief.
It’s more quiet. More peaceful.
Everything feels like more, you know…and somehow less at the same time.
It’s just silence. All that left. What you left.
Can you hear me now?

The encounter of two flames

“Its dangerous” - some people would say -
when two flames encounter at their highest intensity,
“I think its the most beautiful thing ever” - that would be my answer to their claim.
You would never know, until you experience it.
The flames burn, they ignite fire, they bring passion, love.
Its true, we can all get burned by the flames, we all can get hurt in the hot fire.
But thats the important thing, there is something unique in it.
The thing is, two flames can only hurt each other if one tries to use its power to dominate its other half.
They need to take care of each other, they have to trust. They have to allow themselves to feel everything that passes through their sparks.
“So its not dangerous?” - some people would ask.
“I think it was never about that” - i would reply to them.
You just have to get over your fears in order to see clearly that two flames are the perfect complement to each other.
And if they see each other with a pure heart, their flame will burn forever.