i tried my best to give you all i could. all i had... in return i wanted your appreciation and respect. im trying to help you understand but i find it hard to say how i feel.
somehow, it can be written on paper but never in the words i can speak. there were never really the moments, so why must i try? i wasn't taught how to express my love and feelings...
if only i knew you'd give up on i wouldn't wasted my time with you. i really wanted you to be there for me but i guess I'm the one to blame for the monster your creating

these tears only fall for you
but the pain only i bring up
crying at the open slit of my emotions
cut and bleed
but still your there
taking away my heart away from my shattered hope
with only that one part of me you have the ability to cure me
as if i been resurrected
so alive once again
with your eternal promise
leaving death a pointless matter
I'd rather not have my worthless suicide take my soul to drown in hell
but prefer your revengeful beautiful ****** be it so
i love you enough to allow you to **** me
I'll give you the dark satisfaction
but as entwine our hearts are, let it be death together we'll face
with you and only you my love

so devouring but its only i who can feel this
not a granted wish but a unwanted pain
another razor felt thought just cutting me apart
just nail me back into my coffin if this you cannot take such as i
in the prolonging years could this curse still be here?
fearing that maybe one day, this might draw me out into the sun
and burn away like a bloodsucker
so crazed by my own personal hell and driven to suicide?
be that as it may, do i have the power to overcome it all to survive?
with difficulty i can only try to fight this
i wont let this **** me....

closing myself back into my coffin of festering emotions
I'll carve your name into me
until the day it will forever remain on my tombstone
i want to keep you but I'm afraid
i don't want to let your death be another razor cutting me
your mine but this paranoia makes it hard to believe
help me see through this painful lie
your not doing this but I'm creating it
i don't intend to still I'm only hurting myself
through it all, toward the end
I'm weak and hopeless
covered in scars i made for you
your there listening every i word i speak through a stifled sob
softly comfort me with your undying love
believing in your truth i run into your arms
countless times we say i love you
in the end of this raging battle you never surrender
knowing your fighting for me

the thoughts are there once more
tells of a confession, i dare not dwell
shall not hasten of this silent destruction have the best of me
cannot give in the lies
assumptions blankets me with convincing whispers
it wont stop, still, i wont listen
i cannot let these thoughts put me to rest
drowning me deep into my grave
we're in this together
we'll suffer, we'll ****
but together we die
your the last thing i want to see and hold
before we grow cold
our intertwine derange hearts will together stop beating
I'll end my life with you

Burn me away like you done before
There's nothing I want anymore
What have you done to make everything die?
Was it all a lie?
When you said you'll always be here?
Then disappear...
Did you expect me to forget all?
Or just your sick game to watch me fall?
What we become?
What have YOU become?

Making me weak
Clouding thoughts that cut away at me
But what can I do?
Darling I need you
Stay to save me
Don't let this deprive what we fought for
Drain out this venom
Purify my heart
Intoxicate me with your love
Slit my eyes open to see the heart I hide
Show me that this is not forever
**** this dreadful feeling
Bleed out the hope I cant see
You see I cant do this alone
Just remember,
We're in this together

I'll leave you to see I'm not worth it
bury it all away to die
don't cry my name
festering and reeking of misery
there's a slight denial in forgetting all this
knowing the lack power you secretly harbor in your broken soul
you wont let it go
but you could at least try

To have you there lying next to me
In our pool of blood
We'll fade
Together our soul will travel with the undying love we promised
our eyes fixed on each other
together we'll bleed
we'll rot
my love, i will die for you
and with you darling

Again, I'm weak.
Softly I weep.
I run to hide.
Alone to cry.
I'm tired of feeling like this sickening frailty.
Theres no end to this is there?
Left to decompose in all the pain of dying alone.
To fear the only thing I wished, is that what I really want?
I could see the purpose you possess.
The thoughts you kept hidden in your worthless heart.
Honestly, this is what I was afraid of but this losing has become clear to me to prove your already dead.
Constantly, I've tired to keep this from happening.
Forgiven, forgotten.
Force to engulf thousand memories I can never relive.
Makes me wonder, could I ever forgive again?

isolate me from these razor sharp lies
bleeding me out till i want to die
there's doubt, to await and drown me in my tears
to my soul its theirs
the paranoia to leave because there's nothing left here
with that, I'd rot in peace
with every blood i spill I'm feeding my fear
self-destruction i lay with infliction
then it shall be i, the one holding the razor