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milk Oct 2017
maybe it's because i am not satisfied with who i am
maybe it's because i've fallen so from where i use to be
maybe it's because i let myself fall in love
maybe it's because i learned friendship, and trust, and hope and
with learning all these things, there was a consequence
a consequence that wasn't mine to serve
it's because after knowing what these concepts were,
it was impossible but to not notice their absence
i am not sad because of my unresolved trauma, i am sad because my coping skills were people and people leave
and sadness is present
sadness does not pause for you
sadness does not let you prepare
sadness rips into your chest and makes its home there
i'm sad because i'm not my own reason to live
i'm sad because i want to stay sad
because it's safe
because it's the only constant in my life
milk Apr 2017
there was a funeral in my bedroom
wilted petals of once vibrant chrysanthemums have been scattered on my mattress
these tired springs of this grave i call a bed,
give in to the slightest weight
a bouquet of delicate daffodils and lilies fall
apart as they hit the surface of my skin
the detached petals embrace me like
these quilts
the headboard became a blank tombstone,
resembling these empty eyes
O, death
take me into your warm arms that feel like the home i've been deprived of
starved of love i've been ‘til you appeared upon me
O, my dearest death,
i fell in love with your touch
i've craved your presence
surrounded by these withered carnations and daisies,
i’ve realized that the funeral held in my bedroom
was for me
im a void of emotions
milk Jan 2017
I want your lips on mine,
whilst your arms are wrapped around me holding my body close to yours, as I have my arms around your shoulders
running my fingers through your hair
When our lips break apart, we both gasp for air,
but it seems when our eyes are closed and our lips are pressed against one another's,
oxygen is unnecessary and time does not exist
**** this poem

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