from the pain that chases us
like monsters under the bed
chrome gun barrels pointed at our head
****** tears because the pain never ends
killers and thieves after me like when the

I can't come back from this sickness

the venom coursing through me

she was the only one who knew me

but then we lost sight of the love

consumed by our addiction to drugs

when I was with you I didn't need a plug

but these feelings fade and we get overtaken by our rage

as if we just unlocked our demons cage

I thought we grew as we aged then why am I the same

I'm just a helpless addict yall think this is a game like there isn't a parasite cutting and pulling the wires in my brain and you tell me to get over it like I'm not ******* insane don't you think I've tried can't count the amount of times I've already died and nobody wants to talk about the problem so they all just run and hide  like I can't feel their shady vibes and I'm just so aggravated that I want to take this serrated blade and stab it right into my ******* eyes because I'm tired of seeing through your ****** lies

I remember a time where I was always lying saying I'm fine when my

insides felt like they were on fire every night praying to my higher

power smoking sour stuck in my head with suicidal thoughts the

minutes turn to hours when she died I showed up to her moms house

with flowers that love was real and so was the drugs she was doing

and all the guys she was ******* in order to maintain the habit how

would you have it I couldn't grasp it I let it all go slit my wrists and

let the blood flow crimson red give me 2 minutes I'll be dead