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We moved to a place that we knew,
With the mountains and sea at the view.
2am drinks, traffic headed downtown.

Usually I go out on nights,
And not think of you once.

Got moments slipped through my mind,
Proof and photographs have been deleted.
Kissed someone new last night,
I don’t even know where you’re sleeping.

Usually I don’t cry at all,
Built myself a tough wall.
Funny how time reveals it all.

I pulled out all my journals
That I hid at the back of the closet,

Read them ‘til 10,
Then I read them all over again.

Weeping in a moonlit room,
I still view the vision of us cooking dinner.

Time to roll up the welcome mat,
Return the keys.

Curtains started coming down,
We changed the second we we’re moving out.

Am I crazy for being the one to leave?

You took the last flight just to see me.

I guess our ending ain’t ending happily.

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I see now,
The Folly
Of my desperate clinging,
To a dying tree,
That gave back nothing.
Though I poured out my heart,
It remained unmoved.

Its responses
Stiff and unyielding.

Would you forsake
Your family's expectations
Just to stand
By my side until the end?

Your commitments
Speak louder
Than our love ever could.

When I contemplated
Ending it all,
The world seemed
To cry out in protest,
Every living thing.

Reaching out,
To keep my weary soul,
Tethered to life.

How I wish our paths
Had never intersected.
For in your absence,
I felt utterly lost.
In the darkness,
Bearing the weight,
Of longing for someone
As cold as winter.

Yet beneath each mask
And persona I tried on.
My authentic self remained,
Steadfast and true.
And you,
Too,
Were present in everything.

Appearing in all I did,
Whether I wanted it or not.