All the stars line up to chase away the darkness in my head,
But you’re the only one who could ever turn my gray world into a painted masterpiece.
I miss the colors you used to draw upon my life,
And I miss seeing two shadows when I looked at the ground,
But ever since you’ve left, my world is once again gray and colorless,
And the only shadow I see is my own walking toward the ends of my life.

I’m slowly letting go of everything I thought I needed.
Today when I saw you with her,
My heart didn’t break and my mind didn’t crash the way it once did,
My stomach didn’t drop the way it did before when I thought of you being with someone else,
And the image of you kissing her on the swing set we sat on the very first time we went on a date didn’t burn me,
Thinking of how you’d let her wear the sweater you lend me when we walked along looking at Christmas lights didn’t make my heart cold,
And seeing your fingers wrapped around together with hers didn’t make me miss how perfectly ours once paired up.
And if I live to see you with her everyday walking around the places we used to go to,
I won’t be bitter and I won’t get sick of you rubbing your new relationship in my face.
I bet you’ll tell her the same things you told me,
But frankly, I have already forgotten half of those lies.
I used to think maybe time didn’t heal all wounds,
But today when I saw you with her,
I didn’t feel a thing.

The world is a cold, cruel hearted place, so please don’t forget to take your favorite jacket
And when you’re driving through the freeway to a one way ticket world only you know about,
Don’t forget to put your seat belt on, I’ve heard many have died because they didn’t.
And when you make your destination to a sunny, happier town,
Don’t forget to put on sunscreen before you leave the house.
And when you’re walking through the streets, don’t forget to look both ways before you cross,
And when you start to miss the lonely city, don’t forget you can always call.
And when you feel you’re on your own, don’t forget I’ll be waiting for you back home.

My heart was desperate to be loved back,
I let you drown me in a puddle of pain just so I could say I've felt something before in my life.
My legs kicked and fought the water that would soon let me be someone who’d you’d only remember,
But when I die,
What will you remember me for?
Will you remember as the girl who could never say no?
The girl who sat alone behind the classroom lost in the words of her book?
Or the girl who wrote down everything she could never face herself to say out loud?
Will you remember me as the girl whose best poems were about you?
Will you remember me as the girl who was okay with missing the parties everyone went to?
Or will you remember me as the girl who sang when she was both happy and sad?
Will you remember my white dress and flowers in my hair?
Or will you remember my red lips and black skintight dress?
Will you remember me for my messy wavy hair?
Or will you remember me for the way I straightened it every day just so you’d notice I was there?  
Will you remember me for being brave and letting you walk me to the dance floor?
Or will you remember me as the girl you left that night at the bar crying after her first heartbreak?
Will you remember me as the girl who dreamed of seeing the world?
Will you remember me for always trying to be stronger than I was before?
Or will you remember me for my fragile heart you enjoyed shattering?
Will you remember me for my voice?
Or will you remember me as the girl who could never speak out and tell you how broken she was?
Will you remember me for my Sunday’s best?
Or will you remember me for my midnight’s runaways?
Or perhaps,
Maybe,
When I die,
Will you simply remember me as the girl who just couldn't fight the water anymore and let herself be drowned in it?

Your skin shivered in the midnight wind,
Your hair blew swiftly in between the spaces your gel left freely,
Your lips kissed the top of your cigarette and your crooked smile starred off into nothing in the darkness.
We passed through trees and the soft soil under our bare feet,
We were running away,
But the ghost of our past followed behind us.
We roamed the world trying to leave it behind,
But no matter where we found ourselves,
It always came along.
We traveled at speeds that could **** us,
But our demons were faster than any motorcycle that could allow us an escape.
We tried to forget,
But the memories never failed to return.
And when we thought we were ready to start a new life,
Our demons conquered us inside our dream now turned into a nightmare.

I tried to hold her close,
I tried (but mostly I wanted) to be the only human walking on Earth that she would allow to comfort her.
But she didn't want my shoulder,
She didn't want my eyes to meet the hurt in hers,
She didn't want any of it so she pushed me away.
I waited in my truck,
I waited there at 2:45 in the morning in front of her house looking at the stars,
Just waiting.
I kept looking back a her front door hoping she'd be there looking at me,
Looking at her.
But she wasn't.
Soon it was 4:05 in the morning and I starred up at her window,
Her room lights were finally shut off and her pillow was probably drowning in the many tears she had wept tonight.
She laid back to get some rest without any warning,
Not even the removal of her curtain and her glance down on me indicating that she was going to sleep.
Nothing.
But yet here I was,
4:15 in the morning,
Parked in front of Jane's house,
Waiting for her to open the door.

She wore pearls around her neck,
Her dress hugged her body in a way that was impossible to envy her beauty,
Her glorious curls fell heavenly down to her waist.
Her kingdom all bowed down to her and cheered,
A new prince would be among them,
A prince chosen by her father,
A noble man who interfered with his daughter's happiness,
The reason her smile would never be sincere again.
Soon it was time,
She was walking down the aisle,
And when she finally made her way to the end,
She'd be a wife.
But her eyes couldn't stop gazing at the one who sat with the rest of the fooled people thinking this act could be called love,
He fought tears to make her believe it was okay,
But he was destroyed as soon as she got in that dress he'd hoped she'd wear on their special day,
But they couldn't be together.
No,
She wore diamonds,
And he polished her floors.
But when the king left the castle,
And when the queen wasn't looking,
She'd sneak him in her room and they'd talk of all the places they would see,
They talked about running away,
Because home was only where they could be together.
But now she's getting married,
And her happiness is slayed.
And when she made her way to her new prince,
The servant and the princess discovered that not all farytales have a happy ending.