The after shock is setting in, like the ferociousness of an ocean
Tearing me down again and again

Bottle of pills to cure my depression.
Bottle of pills to take away the sadness.
Bottle of pills to take me high.
Bottle of pills to give me sanity.
Bottle of pills to take my life.

There's this girl I know
She thirsts for knowledge and endless seas.
She hides beneath the shade
Never really revealing who she is.

She cares more about other people's happiness
Than she ever will about her own.
When she loves, god, when she loves..
She will shower you in a sea of warmth.

As much as she will love you, she will have a cold side too.
She has the tundra in her,
She has the sun in her,
But she also has this world stopping hurricane.

She will feel every emotion, but magnified.
She will love with every fiber she has.
When she hurts it will tear her apart.
So if you ever get a chance to love her, you have to really love her.

She has the power to move mountains,
But she also has the power to put everything in ruins.
It is in ruins now,
She is out of reach.

Erin is me.

It's been a while since I've felt your touch.
I'm not sure if you remember.
I am going crazy;
And everyone seems to know but you.

It's late, calm & silent
I feel at peace while I feel so broken
I am strong I have always known
But you took that away, you left me burned

Picking up pieces that haven't been found
Running in circles becoming more distant
I am lost but I will stand tall
I will be fine, I will be fine

It consumes me
A feeling of utmost loneliness.
My feet can't touch the ground
My hands can't grasp reality.
I need to feel you
I long to hear your thoughts in my ear.
The way your strong hands glide across the guitar strings.
The lovely melody that is your voice.
I never knew a world so wonderful and bright
Than the world I shared with you..
So good, so right.

Tonight I was hit by a man I do not know
Now I am truly left with nowhere to go
I can't quite wrap myself into comfort
I can't quite make myself feel anything
All I feel is my cheekbone swelling
I hope that no one can tell

The Darkness.

I feel it creeping up on me.
It makes me feel alive
It makes me feel so free.
I welcome it with open arms
I feel the wrath envelop my entire body.

The comfort I feel inside my dark mind
Makes me happy
Takes me home.
Won't you let me bring you into..

The Darkness.

This time of night you would be wrapped around me
and I around you.
I go to sleep alone yet I still feel your presence in this too empty bed.
I drift and I drift but never into full slumber.
How can one slumber when they can't feel their other?

I feel you and I smell you everywhere I go.
I cannot move a muscle because if I do..you won't feel it
I find myself wondering if it is the same for you.
I never wanted this, it was just you.
You wanted me, you loved me.
But still I lie here, because of your decision.

You don't want me, you don't love me, anymore.

I'm sitting here.

I have 17 extra strength tylenol.
I am 95 lbs of skin and bone.
For the last week I have thought about this,
This moment that I could be free.
That man took the last of my worth with him,
When he slammed me to the ground.
There is nothing left inside of me.
My heart isn't beating for me anymore.
It is beating for this foreign presence.
I see his his dark shadow when I close my eyes.
I can't walk anywhere and hear the footsteps behind me.
I am tired of fighting.
I am giving up.
I have 17 extra strength tylenol.
And I am ready to swallow.