The only way I know how to be vulnerable & naked with my thoughts
When I am being honest with myself & with you
I'm giving you a piece of me
You just don't know it
Some of these poems are my secrets
Others just distant memories
My real life experiences
My bliss
My serendipity
My calamity
My feelings
My emotions
My mind
My heart
I am giving you a vulnerable me
And a vulnerable you
So when you connect with my words & thoughts
You are vulnerable too
And knowing that you & I can share this vulnerability
Gives me peace because I'm reminded that we're human

-elissette

What do I even say ?
I'm not good with words.
They get all mixed and confused.
Do I say hi, hey, or hello?
Should I talk you first.. but what do I say ?
What do I say is the key word ?
Hopefully you say something first.
Or maybe you don't know what to say.
I wonder who's going to say something first.

-elissette

Can this be love or is it just lust ?
Either way they both feel so good to me.
You look like heaven but taste like sweet sin Delilah.
Oh God forgive me.. !
Forgive me for I keep repeating the same sin !
Give me the strength of Samson to walk away.
Because Delilah is starting to charm me with her ways.
Oh but you distract me with that smile.
While you poison me with that gold vile.
Oh give me the strentgh of Samson to walk away.
Because Delilah is starting to charm me with her ways.

-elissette

I'm feeling 22.
And yes it's a pretty catchy lyric Taylor Swift.
But I am really feeling 22.
And I am 22.
22 years of living.
Breathing.
Heart beating.
Pure bliss.
Not all 22 years were bliss but for the most part.
I've loved and lost.
Been scarred but also healed.
You learn a lot living 22 years .
Life is calamity & serendipity .
It doesn't make sense.
But that is the ugly truth in a beautiful way.
Every day is calamity in itself but we have to find our serendipity that day.
Life is love .
Life is laughter .
Life is hard times .
Life is pain .
Life is bliss.
And I hope that life gives me many more years to experience so much more.
Im feeling 22.
Are you ?

-elissette

I was just thinking..
how can you talk to one person everyday
and then completely ignore that person the next day ?
Crazy Reality.
All of a sudden it's routine.
Part of your life.
And then it stops.
The phone calls.
The texts.
The snapchats & etc.
Everything just stops.
All of a sudden you need a new routine.
Something.
Anything.
Then one day you forget that person..
and their phone calls,
and their texts,
and their snapchats & etc.
And suddenly you could care less.
Why did it matter at first ?
Why doesn't it matter now ?
Who Cares ?!
Now you're living again.
That's all that matters.
Carpe Diem !
Seize the Day !

-elissette

Is that why you can't say a word to me ?
In this very moment
Say something
Tongue tied ?
Your words don't make sense now
That is all they are
Words
Empty words
No meaning
Letters put together
I hope your words find meaning one day
One day soon
Maybe one day they'll be as vibrant as your heart
Or as colorful as the Northern Lights
One day or maybe someday soon
So choose your words wisely

-elissette

As we lay in the grass he shows me his night sky
Let's look for Mercury, Venus, Jupiter, Saturn, Uranus, Neptune, and Pluto
even though we know it's not considered a planet anymore
who cares
More or less let's not forget about Mars
and show me the night stars
Lets go to Alaska
and use the telescopes in NASA
Show me the galaxy
in its pure form of ecstasy
Show me your favorite constellation
and point me in its direction
And just between us let's let gravity
bestow beautiful calamity
between you & I
Show me the universe
in which we'll immerse
With the sweet scent of flowers lingering around
there's bound to be a meteor shower sneaking around
Let's go to the planetarium
and enjoy all the pandemonium
We're bound to see a shooting star
that isn't even that far
And with the tips of your lips
make a wish
as I give you a sweet tender kiss

-elissette

From across the room he spotted her
For a brief second there was uncomfortable eye contact
Both from him & her
Somehow it turned to flustered pink cheeks
And puppet strings pulling her lips
Into this mischievous smile
He played scenes in his head
Planning what he would say
Unfortunately he did not seize the day
And she walked away

-elissette

You've seen all my curves.
And yes I mean more than my smile.
You've seen every curve of my body.
Where it gets narrow.
And where it widens out.
You know where every crevice is.
And you've felt and kissed my sweet tender skin.
You kindly kissed my mind.
We'll someone came to mind.
Who ?
They say kiss her mind and her body will follow.

-elissette

I said a prayer last night
I prayed for an angel
Her dress was an ivory cream
There she was
Across the room
Shining bright like the moon
I started to swoon over her
And told her to meet me at noon
She came
I opened my mouth and sounded like a baboon
But I mustered out theses three simple words
I love you
Oh God
I was so flustered
It was only a dream
And I wanted to scream

-elissette

Late night calls are becoming scarce.
But so are those good morning calls.
Are you scared to hear my voice ?
Have I given you no other choice ?
I could call too you know.
Or would you just hit ignore.
Just talk to me once more.
Por favor.

-elissette

I hope you know
I can't sleep because you didn't say good night.
It's been two nights.
I just toss and turn.
And I yearn to hear those two words.
This is so stupid.
Can Mohammed Ali just knock me out ?
Because counting sheep
Ain't doing a **** thing.

-elissette

I keep thinking of all theses wonderful poems.
And I should be sleeping.
I have this ache in my chest that says keep writing though.
I just want to sleep.
Another beautiful line has just popped into my head.
Something about our bodies intertwining.
Maybe I should just stop whining.
I can't seem to mute out my thoughts tonight.
Actually this morning.
It's 1:48 am
What am I doing awake ?

-elissette

Worst Battle ?
What I know vs. What I feel.
What I know
is that you make me grow.
What I feel
is so unreal.
What I know
you are the real deal.
What I feel
is that you're my achilles heel.
What I know
is that your actions make me have
premature ventricular contractions.
What I feel
are your sweet kisses resonating in the back of my mind.
What I know
my heart misses you.
What I feel
who cares.
What I know
I care.

-elissette

Write me a poem.
Write about how you love looking into my poo poo brown eyes.
Write about my ridiculous laugh.
Write about how you love the lingering smell of perfume on my body.
Write about how you love my sweet soft skin.
Write about how beautiful my scars are.
Write about how you have bookshelves full of books
based on sentences I whispered to you at 2 am.
Write about how my fingers fumbled while trying to interlock with yours.
Write about my legs for days.
Write about my horribleness which is actually wonderful.
Write about how I made you laugh.
Write about my horrible taste in music.
Write about how you see me in your dreams.
Write about my sarcasm.
Write about the smirk creeping on your face right now.
Just write.

-elissette

He doesn't come dressed in a red cape and pointy horns.
He comes as everything you've ever wished for...
that boy, that girl, the one thing that has you mesmerized.
Lucifer's got angels too you know.
You may call them demons but they were once angels too.
Twice as pretty and twice as quick.
Don't be coaxed into taking a bite of that sweet forbidden fruit.

-elissette

You wrote me a love letter.
A different kind of love letter.
Not the handwritten kind.
You wrote me a classic love letter.
On my body with your mouth.
Signed with a hickey.
I want to write you a love letter too.
Not the handwritten kind.
The kind for the whole world to see.

-elissette

All I want is for my happiness to leak out onto you.
I want to make your wishes come true.
I want to be your dearest friend.
I want the sparkle in my eye to become your very own sparkle.
I want my words to gently pull the corners of your mouth into a beautiful smile.
I want you to smile so much that at the end of the day
your lips ache as much as my lips ache.
Let us smile with human eloquence and angelic ecstasy.

-elissette

Your brain is a silo filled with unsolved mysteries.
There is a universe beneath your skin,
coursing through your veins,
tangling in your sinew.
You are so much more alive than you think.
You have no control over your life.
So just live.
And live beautifully in that universe underneath your skin,
let joy course through your veins,
let love tangle in your sinew.
That silo in your brain full of unsolved mysteries will slowly be solved.
So just live.

-elissette

Slowly I opened my eyes
Sun beaming in through your curtains oh so shy
There you layed sleeping peacefully
No worries on your shoulders
It was morning bliss seeing you so alive and at peace
Sun kissing your skin
Blankets hugging you tight
Pillow holding your secrets
Mattress holding everything about you together
Slowly you open your eyes
You notice the sun kissing my skin
You notice the blankets hugging me tight
You notice the pillows holding my secrets
You notice the mattress holding everything about me together
And you gently wrap your arms hugging me tight
Gently pull me next to you to hold me together
Gently lay my head on your chest to hold my secrets
The sun is no longer kissing my skin
Your lips gently kiss my skin
And say
NO
You are mine

-elissette

I inhaled you in with no intentions to exhale you out.
You stuck to my skin and invaded my bloodstream.
Running through my veins.
Creating all types of pain.
Such beautiful pain that I've become numb.
I've sort of become this dumb fool around you.
Should I exhale out such a pain that gives me life ?

-elissette

Were you my serendipity or calamity ?
Maybe you were both.
Maybe you were both...
my demise in disguise.
My downfall and my wonder wall.
After all I have an eternity to find my sanity
& maybe even some clarity.

-elissette