I began another love story
Except I already knew about this one
I knew it existed
But not that it would make me cry

Plagiarism
Overdraft
Unreliability
Incompetence

Your face is in my dreams
In my life, my skin, my breath
that is so dense in the morning
so hot at night.

You are the handsomest
The king in our throne
our legacy
of purity.

I love you so god ****** much.

In this inner city world
In the mind of a woman who digs into her purse and without thought tosses away her old McDonalds coupons onto the ground as if it were her personal garbage can as her second son attempts to sell me a gold fish for a dollar.

I say, "You know, if you take care of those fish and you let them grow they will be worth ten times more." to which he replies "Do you think zombies ****?"

I am waiting for my mother to come with her inner city bus to give me keys to the house that I locked myself out of that I do not call home

The woman lights a cigarette.

Last night and the night before I had a fit of spontaneous crying because I'm a woman
Because I'm a woman I am scared to walk down the street at 9 at night or at 9 in the morning
Because I'm a woman I don't want to work in prisons or social service because I don't want to be harassed
Because I'm a woman it was easy to **** me to ****** me and think that by not fighting back I wanted it to happen

I'm so scared and I can't stop crying

Just like that, it's over
Early morning kisses goodbye
Stumbling in drunk at midnight
No more waiting for flowers
No more jaded friends
Enter "You deserve better."
Let me hold you while you cry
Enter emotions, true love
No more lies, enter trust
Enter "Please don't go."
Enter "I love you, I forgive you."
It's all over
Late night dinners
Dancing in the kitchen
Enter "You don't have to do this alone."
I believe you, **** him
No more disrespect

I picture you at your wedding
Glowing, with a baby in tow
Happy, grateful, crying
Reaching all of your dreams

I hope when we hear about each other, that we'll be proud, and that we'll give credit where credit is due

I thought that I could love you eternally
Then I thought of the certainty
That all living life is one
And we are alive for an eternity

Now I see you are but a stranger
Someone unknown
Another matter another soul
Another vow that's meant to be broken
Another heart that's meant to be torn

God has a plan for us all
A predestined track of circumstance
Trust is much more than a thought
But a way of life
To think that everything is okay
Everything is all right

You say you're crazy
Well, I'm crazier
I'm absolutely insane
For being with someone like you.

You're crazy because you don't know what God is
You're crazy because you don't believe your dreams can come true
You're crazy because you're afraid of your thoughts
Because what you're thinking makes your life and I've told you that a million times

I'm crazy because I have no idea who you are.
Yet I love every inch of you.
How can anyone else know who you are?
Enter my mind, my spirit is waiting.

If you could read my thoughts, boy would I be scared.
I'd be scared you will not be able to understand my passion.
How I am giving you everything I have.
And you want me to talk more.

I want to speak with my eyes, my mouth, my hands.
Don't make me make sounds that have no meaning in another world.
I want you to feel my love through my energy.
Notice how our hearts beat at the same time.

You say you're crazy
Well I'm crazier
Because in this moment
Kissing you is all I can think of.

I am alone in my room,
& all I'd like is a kiss from you.

Remember that time, I thought I couldn't curse in front you
Because you're God looked down upon people who smoke and have ***
Remember when we smoked together
& You didn't know how to hold a cigarette

Have I corrupted you?
Have I made you want to be something you're not?
What I want from you, is that boy
Who made jokes out of everything.

I remember when I fell in love with you.
When you put that cigarette to your mouth
Inhaled and coughed.
I swear I saw you come alive.

It's not about you anymore
I'm growing, and growing and growing
Higher than anything and anyone
I am becoming myself
Realization is at the tip of my tongue

Merely two decades, that's what I am
That is how long I have been here
Two decades
How the **** do I know I love you?
Only you?

All around me, empires are falling
And mine is still standing on a base of lies
Lies lies lies lies lies
It should be the greatest sin

My happiness confuses the **** out of me
I think I'm ready
To tell the truth?
Hah, the thought makes me laugh

I think I'm ready
To tell the truth
Through one, more, lie

This is a transition.
I'm going from a place I never thought I would leave.
To a place I never thought I would be.
Thinking of someone else other than you, as part of me.

Oh man, this is so funny.
It's incredibly hilarious how things simply change.
How things can simply go away.
How strangers come of lovers.

This is different. I am here.
I have no expectations.
My love and my life are free.

There is no end to our world.
We are building the foundation,
of a life with no interpretation
ready for anything thrown, tossed
focused on motivation.

Who can stop us?
We are a force of love that is true
A love that will cure
The sad, the poor the forever blue

I hear love
I hear fun
I hear beating hearts
and shaking beds
I hear beating drums
and shaking legs
I hear you fall
your voice as I tremble
your hands on my thighs
hugging my waist
feasting your eyes
Am I different?
What makes you feel alive?
I'm almost afraid to see you
Will you make me feel alive?
Will you enter my universe?
Will you lose your mind?

How many times have guys said that you have beautiful eyes?
How many times have they said they can’t get you off their mind?

Have they told you that your laugh is still ringing in their ears?
That they want to hold you and hug you and kiss away your fears?

Will they promise to listen and to care about your thoughts?
Will they understand and see every person that you are?

Can they say that when you speak your lips are distracting?
Can they say even when you sleep you’re overreacting?

When they see you do they say their hearts skip a beat?
When they see you do they say, will you be with me?

We all want love
In this life
that is so
so so so unpredictable,
this life.

And as i start writing
I'm no longer afraid of what
Comes out or comes in
As I write about you, love

I can't stop
A river flowing with every ounce of passion
A never-ending, burning fire
Ready to burn, ready to burn

What I want is to build a worship mantle
With a large amethyst crystal facing the sun and the moon
Charging my inhibitions and uncontrollable ****** desire

I want to manifest a blunt in my hand
And me wearing a **** outfit that outlines my curves
A man or woman that can’t take their eyes off of me

I don’t want to be happy anymore
I want to be at peace and I want to accept myself
I am perfect I have no flaws

I want to be creative and be naked half the time
Cooking or painting or laughing at my own jokes

I want to make fancy drinks
With bitters and orange peels
Lust and love

I want to go to pretty places the kind that are picturesque
I won’t take pictures

My freedom in all it’s forms will speak through my smile
Something innate to me
A memory in my muscles

I will fool myself everyday until I die

As far as the moon goes
I'm jealous of its brightness
How it can change a tide
Take you for a ride
And collide

As far as the moon goes
I'm jealous of it's darkness
I'm jealous of how it has a schedule
A full calendar that never changes
I'm jealous of it's nature

As far as the moon goes
I'm jealous of it's beauty
That its mirror the ocean glows in its presence
Its bumps lying softly and rashly on its face
I'm jealous of its entrance

As far as the moon goes
I wish I could go with it
Hear it spinning in the vortex
Tell her to stop yelling my name

Last Monday of summer and its raining

Such gloom

Oh how I long to be in symmetry
To love intrinsically
To think irrevocably
To sigh and breathe familiarly
To sit silently and fight no more.

When we get married
I want the sound of waves
and birds and trees
to play as the guests come in

When we get married I want there to be
floating candles
and warm snow
and cool sunlight

When we walk in I want it to look like a miracle
I want everyone to feel our love
I want everything to be completely silent
No clapping, just feeling

I want the sound of the air to erupt
I want everyone to hear nothing but our hearts beating
Beating to the rhythm of a song
A song that was written, just for us.

What do you want to do? I ask,
Ready to hear the same answer
The answer that we all want
To Save The World.

But from what?
What is it that is plaguing us?
Is it people like them?
That say they want to Save The World
And instead they light a bowl and inhale their heads.

What are you doing? What is your role?
You say you want to Save The World,
but from what?
Is it from people like you that trust the universe so wholeheartedly,
Anything is possible.

That is who I am.
Before I pick up a piece of garbage from the ground,
I light a cigarette.
I inhale, and I trust the universe.

If the world is ever in trouble, I'll be in the front lines.

I heard somewhere that we are the making of our environments
So if I hang around trees
Will that make me a giver of life to earth
An old, growing, big piece of brocolli

I want to yell at the top of my ****** up lungs
Debri will fly out of my mouth
Like the smoke that I inhale
As I think of the fastest way to die

What is it that I feel toward myself?
That's the better question
I'm tired of thinking I'm tired of feeling
That when anything is possible why can't I die

Ayudame, help me
Talking to my mind
My soul my soul why do you break yourself
Berate yourself as if tomorrow is but a dream

Ghost

Suddenly I feel like I am myself
By thinking of everything that I am capable of
But stopping and breathing
And seeing that this moment is what really matters

In this moment I know that you are incredible
Your life and what you have lived gives me so much inspiration
Because your life is something I could never imagine living
And as I imagine you loving me
Wow, I am so happy

I can lay in bed and think of your face near mine
And your mannerisms and your voice
And how right before you call me out on my *******
For a split second you hold back

You are a person
But you are also hurt
But you are so strong
And I like that about you

I like you very much

Maybe you did call me
Maybe you didn't
Why do I feel like
You're not really in it.

I'm scared of you
Your anger radiates
Your knowledge permeates
You are a person
That is the most attractive

I can't stop thinking of you
Not because I like you that much
But because you are in another world
What are you doing there?

Who are you? Where are you?
How can you understand all that I'm saying
I know there are others like you
But what makes you different

Idling and looking over the edge
Are all the fantasies I'm dreading will leave my head
Hopeless and left with no choice

Imagining never thinking twice
And doing the first thing that pops into your mind
Nothing can stop you
And everyone's the same

Will there be no dreams then?
Are dreams only dreams because they don't come true?

I am a product of God's omnipresence
Of His mercy and His forgiveness
Of his salvation and his protection

I have a duty
My purpose is to be a beacon of light
Follow me
Because God eradicates all darkness
And I walk with Him

His brightness has shone on me
my blood was saved by Him
I am grateful for my life
Because God has given me breath

In the caves he spoke to us
He said do not lose hope
Believe in me
In me you will live forever
In him I live forever

I love you
I love you
I ******* love you
You make me so angry

But this is a poem about you
And what makes you wonderful
The way your voice changes
And how you eat my cold nose

From the way you hold me tightly and take away my breath
To the way you claim me as your property and put your hand on my chest

You hold your ground
Like an unmoving, untiring tree
Straight from the earth
All the way to your own stars

My energy fights to beat yours
It always has been a competition
Who can love the other more?

My thoughts are scattered
I can’t write how I feel
I wish you would love me
Love me enough, love me enough
Love me enough to be real

Enough to bring me flowers every week
Enough to not hate me
Enough to tell me how beautiful I am
Enough to not hate me

This doesn’t make sense
It’s how I feel about you
Like after years you still don’t know me
You still don’t know how much I love you

It’s everything we’ve been through
How none of it would have happened with her
It’s like almost half our lives
We’ve tried and we’ve tried
It’s all gone by in a blur

I’m looking forward to day break
I have hope it will happen soon
When we are laughing and vibing
All the flower we’ve planted will bloom

I’m looking forward to day break
Everyday waking up next to you
I’m looking forward to the sun shining
And my world expanding because of you

What we have is a young love
a Love cultivated in the purest of forms in the surest stages of childhood where everything we did was concrete fact that we are living because we did not have to think to live.
Born into a life of doubts and poverty so poor that free public education cost us and we didn't know the importance of learning why we were there and what was being taught was for own good and not to punish us for being bad kids.
For being in love with our childhood.
Our society was one of judgment.
We were judged as people as children as kids who were too poor to be cool. But not too poor to make a joke and laugh and make friends who were as poor as us.
You were as poor as me. And here we are now as young souls watering our young love our pure love.
You are the surest thing in my life the solid foundation to my infatuation is your spirit your art that is taking all my parts and putting them together like a puzzle a recipe of a sacred dish that is granted by your every wish.
With you I can't speak only seek a better way of showing you that your scent makes my head sway and all my thoughts are blurred by the slur in your voice by the way you say I love you.