I am a girl
With eyes very dark
And I am a girl
With the ghost of a heart

It haunts my chest's void
With the pain of no pain
A feeling of numbness
Poisons every vein

Tears are no more
And neither a smile
With a soul much too torn
And an absence so vile

My heart has escaped
The cage it permeated
It was, perhaps, instinct
After being defeated

Sympathy, depression
Ran off with it too
Merriment, aggression
Runaway they pursued

Gone are my emotions
That were, at a time, everything
Careless my devotions
And the inclination to cling

Detached from all relations
All apart from one
Immune to shots at separation
He stays my morning sun

I love you too much
To see you this way
The poison makes you say things
That you would never say
And the empty bottles
Strewn all over the house
Your drunken waddle
To your crying spouse
My mom sits here
Eyes sullen from hurt
Her children stand hear
Tears staining their shirts
You aren't quite my father
But it feels it's that way
Sometimes you're a bother
And ruin my day
Taking the last bit of money
All for your addiction
Returning with hatred
Which proves my prediction
You yell and you scream
Your face turns bright red
Then you're happy, you seem
Till lightning strikes once again
I dash to my room
I lock everyone out
And then I am doomed
Because hope turns to doubt
So put down your bottle
Stop drinking the poison
Stop yelling and screaming
I hate those harsh noises

Let's pretend
Nobody exists
Let's pretend
I don't have sores on my wrists

Let's pretend
My smile is real
Let's pretend
All my secrets are unsealed

Let's pretend
The world is a good place
Until the very end
We'll all play ******* pretend.

Do you see what you've done?
You've taken my sun
My world once so bright
But now lacking all light

All because of you
Do you see what you do?
My heart is now breaking
My whole world is shaking
All because
My soul you are taking

Surrounded by strife
So I go get a knife
And try to end my life.
I try and I try
To just end it all
I don't know why
You simply let me fall

You promised to catch me
When I came crashing down
But all you wanted to see
Was my face wearing a frown

With a burning passion,
I hate my life
So as time passes
I go and get that knife

My hand is shaking
My skin is breaking
My life I am taking

I take that sharp silver
To my pale arm
I draw it in nearer
And commit my self-harm

The red rushes down
The shade of lips on a clown

I wish you were mine
And I wish I was yours
But how could you love a girl
Who is covered with sores?

Why does it matter
What age or what ***
Makes your heart shatter?
Why does that matter?

Some girls love girls
And some boys love boys
In such a judgmental world
Gays are treated like old, useless toys.

What counts isn't the parts
It isn't the gender.
It counts what's in the heart
So why can't she love her?

All love is love
No matter the age
No matter the ***
So why can't he love him next?

He loves him
And she loves her
Or he loves her
And she loves him

It doesn't matter the shade of skin
It doesn't matter who loses or wins
It doesn't matter if it's a sin
All love is love.

A white girl loves a black boy
And a black boy loves a white girl
Or a black girl loves a white boy
And a white boy loves a black girl

All love is love
Others we shouldn't shun
And others we shouldn't shove
Because of only the type of people they love.

There's a small girl
With a big heart
In a big world
With a smile like art

She laughs and she plays
She walks the right way
She dances and she sings
Happiness she brings

She was so innocent
Thought the world was magnificent
She saw the world as a colorful place
And never suspected it was black and grey

That girl grew up, though
As all girls do
Pain she would know
She'd know depression, too

That girl was now a young lady,
Spending her time crying
In meadows with daisies
Wishing she were dying

A man came along
And asked, "What is wrong?"
She said she didn't know
Oh, she did though.

When the young lady
Was still a young girl,
She saw a tall man
With lots of black curls.

He said, "Hello!"
And she said, "Hi!"
He said, "There's a clubhouse, you know."
And she said, "I want to see it. May I?"

He lead her to a meadow
And did terrible things
He had led her
To a place where no bird sings.

With every touch he took a piece of the child
When he saw her tears she saw his smile
With his hands on her delicate body,
Her soul started slowly rotting

She didn't tell anyone
What that man did
Nobody knew
The secret she held from within

The girl transformed
Into a young lady
And sat crying everyday
In that same meadow with the daisies.

Meet my best friend
Whose name is Depression
Making you hate your own reflection
Nothing feels better than the curse
But at the same time
This blessing couldn't be worse

Meet my lover Eating Disorder
He is mine and he's only mine
He makes my life shorter
Always occupying my mind

Meet my mother Suicide
She hides in the shadows
But eats me alive
As she silently hides

Meet my sister named Self Harm
She cuts me up and down my arm
But don't be alarmed
The pain is a charm

Meet my obsessions
That poison my veins
But that poison feels good
****** sweet pain

The cold is bitter,
And grey is dark
Cold and grey,
That's all I am
Cold and grey,
Certainly ******.

I search for passion
In my mind
But despair is what I find
And a heart I hope will bind.

All love vanished
And all I ever cherished
And the happiness is perished

Everything, gone.
The factors of my smile
Gone.
The sun at dawn
That, too, is gone.
Only darkness
No happiness
Only sadness.

The cold is bitter,
And grey is dark
Cold and grey,
That's all I am
Cold and grey,
Certainly ******.

Holding my breath without you
Fighting for air
Fighting for comfort
Longing for care
Like longing for air

Breathing I will have to do eventually
Like getting over this I will have to do rationally
That feeling of panic
Of something you know you need to do
That feeling of guilt
Like you did something wrong
Fixing things is all that you long

The cold is bitter,
And grey is dark
Cold and grey,
That's all I am
Cold and grey,
Certainly ******.

I would make another promise again
But what are those anymore?
I've broken all mine
Like you've broken all yours

All I am is broken glass
Wondering if the pain will ever pass
Cutting others with my own injury
I do it in fury
Like a smokey hot fire
Like a cut wire
Like broken glass.

The cold is bitter,
And grey is dark
Cold and grey,
That's all I am
Cold and grey,
Certainly ******.

The cold wants warmth
And grey wants light
Cold and grey,
That's all I'll ever be
Cold and grey,
That's all I see.

And that's me.

Have you lost all hope, my dear?
Have you lost sight of what's fake and what's real?
Have you held everything in,
And took it out on that precious skin?

I have, I have, in the past
But this time, I swear, will be the last
I've said that quite a few times
And not followed my lines
But that's in the past
And this time will be my last.

I'm sure you've said that too
But you've done it again
And then your guilt grew
And regret came through
After you took it out on that precious skin
After holding every single thing in.

Have you taken a blade,
And used it for the wrong reason?
Because self-induced pain is all that you're seizing?
Have you hurt yourself, my dear,
Thinking no one will care?

Did you love seeing your own blood,
Pouring out of that precious skin,
Just like a flood?
Was that your rush?
And you thought it wasn't enough?

Have you lost all hope, my dear?
Have you lost sight of what's fake and what's real?
Have you held everything in,
And took it out on that precious skin?

I'm here to say
It isn't the right way
I'm not one to talk
Because that path I have walked
But I can say this:
Please, my dear,
Don't take it out on your precious skin.