Erica Buehler

Erica Buehler Feb 2014

June 7, 2013 - 9:51 PM

I love how
The taste of vanilla lattes
And the cool breeze after it rains
And my bare legs against warm sheets
Remind me of you,
And the softness of your lips
And the comfort of your embrace
The strength in your arms and the
life in your eyes
And all at once my bones ache for
yours once more
And my lips feel numb and untouched
And I remember how long it has been
Since I have seen you

Something I wrote this summer when I was still infatuated and in-lust with a boy who is no good for me anymore

Erica Buehler Feb 2014

An Evolutionary Living in a Primitive World

He’s so satisfied with this life,
I’m envious.
It’s like he’s got it all figured out:
How to live in peace with himself,
With everyone around him.
That love is a feeling
One that should be universal,
And not an object
Or person.

He is not seeking out a lover
He is not seeking to be rich and famous.
He may not be seeking anything, actually.
Except maybe adventure.

That is so admirable
And quite incredible if you ask me.
An evolutionary living in a primitive world.
I wonder if he’s lonely
Or feels that no one can relate.
I wish i could talk with him forever
Let him tell me all the things he knows
As I sit there in awe.
But I no longer have that luxury; that privilege.

Erica Buehler Feb 2014

The Combination Playlist of Summer and of Exes

There must be a list
Of those certain songs
I haven't listened to in months,
Not since summer
When I drove through the heat
My windows down
Toward the coast
Toward you.

Some are love songs
Some are sad songs
Some are both;
They're all a little bit ruined
Now that I remember how
I felt when I heard them
When you meant something
And before I learned.

I've gotten past you
But these silly songs
They don't help.
I know they're just words
And a melody,
A catchy beat,
Sound waves.
But they don't change what happened

Erica Buehler Feb 2014

it is over, let it rest.

I no longer ache for you
I don't even think I really miss you anymore.
There are achingly sad songs
That make my heart a little sore
But I've moved on from you.

There will always be happier songs
That remind me of what I haven't yet given up
And I don't know if you're being spiteful,
Bitter, Angry, Sad, Corrupt,
But "we" does not exist anymore.

"We" ceased to exist when you lied;
When you could not make good decisions for yourself
Before even fathoming making good ones for me.
I do wish you the best, sincerely.
But please, live life without me.

Erica Buehler Feb 2014

Mistaken Love

And all this time you were so convinced
That he was the one
Because you were so comfortable with him.
But what if you were wrong?

You're young and beautiful and sweet
And people, they fall for you.

But you're so afraid to let go
To let yourself find something new
And potentially dangerous,
You're stuck inside your own pretty little head

But it's out there, what you're looking for
And as much as you want it to be him

You must accept possibility.
The possibility that you mistook comfort for love
Friendship for romance
That there, in fact, wasn't more than met the eye.

But now you begin to realize,
And now things will begin to change.

Erica Buehler Feb 2014

February Warm.

You are the warmest day in February.
The smell of freshly-made coffee.
You are the strongest embrace
With the gentlest touch.

Your blue-green eyes are my favorite color
Your smile is the supernova of stars
I don't really know what that thing is
That thing that makes me think of you so often

It's somewhere deep within you
And I'm an addict for it
I crave it
Crave you.

Longing for you is the same as
Wanting a cigarette though I'd never smoked before
And there aren't butterflies in my stomach
When I see you

No,
They are large-winged creatures
That fill the entirety of my rib cage
And make me spill thoughts out of my mouth like running water.

You are every analogy I could ever hope to write
Every symbolic thing or place or idea
And they're just meaningless nouns
In your presence

You are all and everything
All at once
Every minute of every day
Every thought I've ever had has been laced with you.

Erica Buehler Feb 2014

For you.

And I hope happiness finds you.
I hope good fortune becomes a daily occurrence
I hope you see the beauty in every day
And that you find something good in everyone.

I hope you learn to take the bad with the good
And that adversity is given to us as a challenge.
We are tested on how we react
Like chemicals mixed together

I know things aren't how they should be right now.
And maybe they won't be for a while.
But every day is a new opportunity
And I hope you seize every one

Because I've seen parts of you no one has
And I can see who you are and who you want to be.
So be.
Work.
Strive.

You don't have to forget about me
You don't have to forgive me for breaking your heart
But we were meant to be temporary
So now we part.

I hope to see you someday
That you tell me how well you're doing
How good things are
Maybe you'll be in love

And maybe I'll feel a twinge of jealousy
But I'll know you'll treat her right
I know she'll care for you very much
And I'll smile

Because you deserve some good things
And I wish them for you
As they have found me.