I write like I’m whispering to someone who might never hear it— but maybe would understand.

Some lines feel like glances, some stanzas like almosts. I tuck metaphors into corners hoping someone curious might find them.

There’s no name in this poem, but if you read it twice, you might wonder if it’s yours.

i am panicking
that i've scared someone away
by being too honest
but thats okay
no pressure
i'm just throwing out messy lines
no grand declarations
i want to know you first
anyway

i ask for an answer
i practically implore
this is a nudge
bright as the spots of color
on my cheeks
when you trust me
grinning like a fool
i nudge you to answer

you'll look down on me
won't you honey?
i'll see you in the clouds
in the sunsets and fields
in battered tennis *****
sure you had your moments
sausage rolls were never safe
you loved yum yums
i know, you werent meant to
eat them
but i couldnt deny anything
to my favourite girl
tiny little staffy
beautiful, brindle puppy
even if you werent a baby
you were
always to me
my best friend

i was a girl
who people crushed on
i wish i was a girl
girls wanted
i wish
anyone wanted to be with
little old me
i wish i had the strength to ask
if she's bi
or to tell her to read my poems
awfully carefully
(she's not over him)
(i'm not over him)
(i'm under her gaze)
i wish she'd pull me in
with the same intensity
she pushes him away
i wish she'd text me
just one more time
push away the problems
the rumors and
time-zones
and see that i am
me

The older I get
the less I search for

truth

because these days
a white face and honking nose

work for me

it's the simple and absurd things
in this life

that are all I need

you'll look down on me
won't you honey?
i'll see you in the clouds
in the sunsets and fields
in battered tennis *****
sure you had your moments
sausage rolls were never safe
you loved yum yums
i know, you werent meant to
eat them
but i couldnt deny anything
to my favourite girl
tiny little staffy
beautiful, brindle puppy
even if you werent a baby
you were
always to me
my best friend