12 year old kids aren't supposed to be depressed.
So how come when I was 12 I didn't want to get dressed?
If I got dressed that meant a new day was starting
and I didn't want another day of crying.

12 year old kids aren't supposed to be depressed.
So how come when I was 12 I wanted to end it all?
I just wanted all the pain to go away.
Every night I dreamt of the day
when I finally got the courage
to slit my 12 year old throat.

12 year old kids aren't supposed to be depressed.
So how come when I was 12
I would rather choke on my own blood
than choke on my tears
in front of all my 12 year old peers?

It is  3 PM
and I'm drinking.
I want the ***** to take this feeling away.
I'm lonely.
It is 3 PM
and I have 3 friends.
All of them are busy.

I thought I would've had a chance
I guess my mind was playing tricks again
It's okay because she's probably more sane
I'm a time bomb ticking to the finish
Constantly waiting for my moment to go
Blow through everything and break down the walls
It's just my personality after all
Tic
I stare off in the distance
Toc
I don't talk
Boom
Everything is static

oh, how i crave the feeling of the warm summer sun
shining on my face again.
i want to frolic in a field.
dancing in the daisies.
rolling around in the tall grass.
laughing and giggling like a little school girl.
having fun.
watching and listening to the birds chirp overhead
taking solace in the shade of the sun
when it gets just a little too hot out.
running down to the stream
to splash in the cool water.
we don't have a care in the world.
this is what it means to live.
i want to be one with the world
and one with myself
because you can not live
if you've already died.