I have been suicidal for about 3 years
I have always thought about going through with it
I have actually attempted a few times but they failed
After I got my new animals I feel different
I am still suicidal and I still have my rough moments
I know that there is a lot to live for and I know that I have a wonderful boyfriend who helps me through everything
But sometimes it isn’t enough
Sometimes I still want to die
But when I think of how it would affect my animals, it hurts me
I know that if I die that they will not know what happened and they will be looking for me
They will not know what to do. They will do the same thing that my uncle’s dog did, he searched for him after his death and ended up starving to death because he was depressed
I don’t want that to happen to my animals, I don’t want them to go through that heartache