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Feb 2014 · 364
Mass Destruction
Emmalee Feb 2014
I want to be gone.
I want to feel the rainstorms
Electrocute me with their
Lightning.
I want to hear the sad song
Of a person who
Was once in love.
I want to read between the lines
And find somewhere to go.
I want to be forgotten.
I want to be unknown.
I only want this pain to end
And I want to be alone.
I want to surround myself
With death and loneliness.
I want to hinder my thoughts
With pure evil and mass destruction.
I can't live with the feeling
Of loving you anymore.
I can't ignore the millions
Of crushed emotions
That linger in my soul.
I can't describe myself
As being okay.
I'm ruined and torn
And the glass ring
Around my heart is
Completely shattered.
I don't know what
Else to to
But be forgotten and lost
And unable to think about
You.
Feb 2014 · 312
A Perfect You
Emmalee Feb 2014
I won't give up on the thought of me and you in the midst of all this confusion.
I won't surrender myself to settle for less than what you've given me in the past.
Instead I will fight, I will ignite this flame which seems to me to be just a hint of desire.
And I will burn the city down with the fire that starts in my heart, in my soul.
I will give it all up- the happiness, the jealousy and the smiles that I once knew.
I will give it all up just to be with only one part of you.
That part I want to know, that part I want help to get into.
Is the heart of a perfect person, the heart of you.
Feb 2014 · 1.0k
Nicotine
Emmalee Feb 2014
The nicotine placed in your lips;
It reminds me of my last cigarette.
Like cherries,
Oh! The sweet taste of cherries.
I love it, this taste
Especially on you.
I miss the buzz, the high,
The feeling that I need
In order to cope with you being gone.
But when you're gone, that feeling
It's flown away as well.
And I'm left to wish
I had more nicotine
To settle my addiction.
Feb 2014 · 410
Hidden Between the Lines
Emmalee Feb 2014
Maybe it's because
The only thing I had
At that time was the smile
And eyes you seem to
Portray so well.

I still can't get over
Those broken lies
I so secretly wanted
To believe all because
They came from you.

I miss those moments,
The person I once
Knew to be my savior,
My escape,
My hope and dignity.

But everything is
Completely lost
And proven to be
The biggest lie of them all.
With no happy ending.
Feb 2014 · 475
Allow Me
Emmalee Feb 2014
Please!
Become mine
Just for tonight.
In the darkness of this hidden room
Allow me to comfort you.
Allow me to become a piece of you.
Allow me,
Myself,
To give you a high,
Make you go to limits.
Allow me to become your game
Just for tonight,
Because tomorrow this confidence
Will be shot once again.
And I will ignore
Tonight
And pretend that it was a dream.
So don't dare to speak to me
In the morning.
I will be gone.
I will be playing someone else's game.
While you go back to her.
Feb 2014 · 421
Glass
Emmalee Feb 2014
Why not just
Crush me
Break me more
Because I'm broken glass.
I can't be fixed
I'm shattered into millions
And all that is left of me
Are the few sparkles,
Soon to be thrown away.
So just do it
Push me
Shove me
Sweep me from my sorrow
And throw me away.
It was your fault anyway.
Feb 2014 · 360
Love's Experiment
Emmalee Feb 2014
I've become used to
The feeling of loneliness.
And I'm not quite sure
I mind it.

I've been beaten,
Abused,
Lied to and confused,
But I've grown to like it.

It reminds me that
Love cannot be true.
The feeling is very
Overrated.

It taught me
Not to believe in fairy tales.
Otherwise I'll be living
As love's experiment.
Feb 2014 · 372
Lost
Emmalee Feb 2014
Forgive me.
I made my dream real.
The lost soul;
it escaped my body.
It looked upon the cries,
it looked upon the sadness.
But when my soul wasn't lost,
why was there no one there?
Regret.
Is this what they feel?
When I see my body,
crying faces looking upon it,
am I looking at people who cared?
If this to be right,
then I refuse this choice.
I know it to be
A lie.
I can't believe in these lies.
Pity for themselves,
this is what these faces are in search of.
Not for me,
my wounds,
my lost soul.
It is all for the title
of saying that they had once loved
a person who has left their life.
Feb 2014 · 362
Broken Flower
Emmalee Feb 2014
The broken flower;
it lies.
It is crying for oxygen,
water,
just one chance to regain it's beauty.
Although it cries,
the world around it sits
and watches it fall.
It waits for the rain.
It waits for the sun.
But all that broken flower is given...
Night and snow.
Occurrences that split those petals,
into millions,
like a crushed heart,
are all that that flower has to rely on.
It hopes that the ice would melt,
transform into water.
But happiness for that flower
is lost at this point.
And as it breaks
it falls
straight to the ground,
wishing that the seasons could disappear,
and summer would forever take it's path.
Impossible.
But that's what makes it so beautiful to watch.
The suffering has ended for that
broken flower.
Death is life's only true happiness.

— The End —