11-22-14

Was the best day of my life
A beautiful baby girl was given to me
To stay alive
A gift from god when i asked him for a sign.
My baby sister saved me that day.
The night before she was born i
Wanted die
But i got the call that she has arrived in
This messes up world
As soon as i saw her in my mother's arms
I knew i wanted to care for her for forever and
Beyond
The little baby was placed into my arms and that
Was the first time i truly felt love
Her eyes the color of a beautiful chocolate brown
And the button nose i absolutely adore.
The years go by and she continues to be the reason i'm still alive but
There has been multiple times i've tried to die.
I'm sorry my sweet girl that i made mistakes
But from this day on i will clean up my mistakes
I know mom cant take care of you like i do
I know you call me momma and it feels so right
Its like your a child of mine
I've raised you, i've bathed you, i've been always the one who tells
you everything is going to be alright
I'm here for you babygirl momma will always be by your side
I love you more than to the moon and back
My love for you is infinite and
There is no lie in that

Your hugs are
The only home
I've ever known
Your hugs are
My safety net for when
i fall in the endless
loop of my negative thoughts
Your hug is the only
thing i need when my
heart is ready to give out
You make the worst days
the best days
Your name makes the
flowers in my heart
bloom
Your smile brightens up
my darkest days
You are all i ever need
i feel as if it might be meant
to be
The flowers in my heart
have been seeds for a while
the day i met you a garden grew in my
heart
You grew flowers
in my heart
Then you planted them in my lungs
Next thing you know
I couldn't breathe
I was suffocating
in our toxic love
Little did i know you planted
roses with thorns in
my heart and our love,
it was killng me
Dear my lover,
your plan was to simply
destroy me
Why couldn't you let me be
Why did you have to
break me?