why has everyone always got to be so mean
when they see me crying, it only makes them keen
and when they the scars engraved upon my wrist,
the sentences they create hit me harder than their fists

i'm sorry, i didn't mean to be born
i'm just grateful that after i'm gone, i can't respawn
i wish i wasn't in this world too
i don't deserve a single breath as much as others do

it breaks my heart
to see innocent people part from their families for death
i should be the one it takes
my death would make everyone feel better
and i wouldn't need to write a letter
because i'd have no one who would care to read it
who would care about why i died
who would blink a single time

i have no one there for me
no one who knows everything about me and doesn't think i'm crazy
i'm surrounded by people but i'm still so alone
i smile so much, but people don't know
that everytime it will always be fake
just another meaningless face i'll make
my smile doesn't mean anything
just because i smile, it doesn't mean i'm happy
if you saw my scars as well as my smile
it wouldn't take you a long while,
to see how i truly feel.

i try to write some happy rhymes
but it's weird, not what i've done for a long time
i try to think of things to say
but what happy things can i say, when i'm too busy feeling this way
i have a boyfriend so i won't moan
but you're barely ever there, i feel so alone
you spend days ignoring me then say i'm blanking you
but you must not realise you do that to me too
you do it more i ever do
but you don't even have a clue

sometimes i feel like my hearts in a shredder
i'm in so much pain, it feels like it won't ever get better
one minute you care
the next,  you wouldn't dare
one minute, it's like it's true love
the next, to you, i'm just another girl

how can we say we date
when we barely act like mates
we don't talk, hug or kiss
so tell me babe, what is the point of this?
at first, you were so kind
i thought there's no other better person i'd ever find
but you walk straight past me without saying hi
and you don't even bother saying bye

one minute i'm all that you need
then the next, i'm no one you want to be near
one minute you're hugging away all my fears
the next, you're the cause of that pain that sears
through my bones, flesh and heart
slowly and painfully causing it to part
one minute it was me and you against the world
the next, you can't find a single word.

my heart aches without you here
tears fall knowing you're nowhere near
Their stupid smug faces surround me
Their words cut like knives, piercing my body

I miss your warmth
I miss your smile
You being here makes the suffering worth while
You make  the pain more bareable
You being here because the days go quicker
You make it easier to ignore them as my parents bicker

You're the reason for me being here
baby you saved me
I wouldn't still be here if it wasn't for you
baby you're my hero
but you don't have a clue
you don't know who i really am
The 'me' you see is really just a scam


i pretend to be better
because if i won all those years ago, i wouldn't have met you
but it's hard to pretend to be happy, again and again
It's hard to prevent yourself from bringing forth the end
and if i did it, course there'd be a letter to send
But would you ever read it?
Would you have the strength to sit and think of me
reading my last thoughts over and over?
Not once, have i ever found a four leaf clover
not in a book, not in real life
not in a photo,
i only ever found my sharp stainless steel knife

Let me love you
I'll love you well
Let me inside of your heart
I'll keep it intact, every part
i promise to be gentle
if there's any dark stuff, i won't go mental

I'm here for you
right by your side
love me too
and you'll have no reason  to hide

I'll kiss away all your fears
Wipe away every tear
I'll make sure there's no reason for you to cry
I'll love you until the day that i die
baby don't ask why
just let me see inside
I promise you'll be in for a breaktaking ride
just let me inside

open your heart to me
I'll still love you, whatever i'd see
No more secrets
no more regrets
you won't have anymore reasons to fret
just let me inside.

There are empty bottles of alcohol on the floor
i've barricaded the door
the knife is in my hand
my families' heads are buried in the sand
tears pouring down my cheeks
watching as the blood slowly leaks
my heart is pouding in my chest
as i tell myself it's for the best
i stab the knife into my veins
happily embracing the pain
everyone will be happy now
that this stupiod cow is gone
my vision becomes hazy
some of you might think i'm crazy
i feel my life slowly slipping away
but i know, that it's better for everyone, this way.

I see not only your beaty on the outside
but also your beauty within
and the thought of unleashing your inner thoughts
is like going on a ride
and a good friend of mine once told me;
'fight for what you love'
and it's strange, because we've only just met
so why is this rushing through my head?
and the day that you finally let me see into the real you
i realised my feelings were true

i'm in love
it's nothing like what i felt with all the others
You fill my stomach with butterflies
and when i think about you, i can't help but blissfully sigh
you make me nervous all the time
and i can't help but come up with rhymes about you
if only, i think, you'd love me too

the day you told me you loved me
i was buzzing like a bee
nothing could wipe the smile off my face
and nothing could slow the pace of my heart
for as long as you and i are friends, my heart shall never part

then came the day that i was told you no longer loved me
i wondered why i hadn't seen this coming
and the guitars of my heart stopped strumming
my heart tore in two
one part stayed with me
the other went with you.
When you walked away from me that day
you left me broken
and now i'll never be the same
you changed me, the day you came.