and now we never ever speak
for all i know he could be dead

i give and i forgive
you get and you forget

you're asleep
you're dreaming
about teeth falling out and shadows chasing you
about fields full of flowers and holding his hand
no matter what about, you dream too much
and you wake up and he's still not there
the rain makes your windows look *****
and the wind causes the roof to make noises
and he won't be there to hold you when the sun goes down
so you go back to sleep
and behind your eyelids you see that smile
that smile he used to flash at you
before holding up a glass of white wine
"cheers" spilling from his asymmetric lips
but that's history
and you shouldn't still be dreaming about him
but you were never one to be the boss of your dreams
the heat wakes you up at 5:47
you haven't been this hot since the too of you shared a bed
you need to stop always drawing him into things
he
is not there
he
won't ever be
don't make yourself remember the good times
and how he's everything you ever looked for in a guy
those thoughts belong in late night dreams
and you need to wake up.
wakey wakey, eggs and bakey

i lie next to him
his tan skin and his sleeping soul
and he's so beautiful

and it was crazy how obvious his flaws became
once i was not forced
to think he was flawless

you might need me
i don't need you
i love me
i love me enough for the both of us

i hate him
        ih a te hi m


i HATE HIm





                                            I h a t e h i m



i ha                             te           hi                  m

i h a a a a a  a a a   t e e e e e  e e h i i i i i m m m m m


i hate him

i  
  hate
              him