never
have i ever
been more torn
or out of words
it's all so fragile
a tiny touch of wrong
and it's all broken
i run and hide
to escape it
because i am not ready
for the storm cloud of reality
to roll
into my heart
and change my beliefs
about the two of us

and i saw you talking to him
laughing at his stupid ******* jokes
which is fine
good for you
i'm not into him anymore
and i'm not jealous
i should be i guess
it's just the way you two
were standing there
talking and joking
it reminded me of old times
and it wouldn't bother me
if he liked you
but still i'm a little sad

if i can make it there
i'll see you on the other side

the darkness is the winter
we blew out the winter
the sadness is the fall
the spring is as well
we chased that away
with lights and flowers of green
there's only us left
we are the summer
and when summer is over
you'll be the winter
and i'll be the spring
when summer is back
we'll fall for each other all over again

i went to bed early last night
because i needed some time
where you couldn't control my thinking
and the plan would've gone perfectly
if you hadn't made your way
into my dreams

i read somewhere that
if a writer falls in love with you,
you can't die
and i'm sorry
i'm sorry
i'm sorry
i'm sorry
because i know you don't want to walk
on this earth anymore
i'm sorry if this stupid poem
made you immortal

i started a new school today
and people in my class are really sweet
and a lot of people made me laugh
and i got to be around people  
i used to know very well
and they looked at me
like they had missed me
and the bus was on time
and my bag wasn't heavy
and an old couple smiled at me
and said hello
and my mum asked me how my day was
and my dad did the same
the sun was out today
no rain at all
today i am very happy