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Jul 2015 · 249
Untitled
Emily Jul 2015
I keep looking for signs
Either they don't exist, or they all say
maybe
Do I just want a definite answer,
Or do I want the answer to be yes?

When you left
I didn't just lose you
I lost me too
I lost the happy me
The one that used to see the brightness in everything
I try to be positive
"glass half full"
but why does the full half seem full of emptiness?
Sep 2014 · 252
'Okay'
Emily Sep 2014
I've got a one track mind
And you're on it all the time
Why do you make everything so lovely?

So tell me timing
when will you finally
Get things right
Cause I'm starting to think
The answer's never
How can I make things better
When you + me can never equal together.

Do you wanna take a guess at what I'm thinking of?
Trying to figure out why life gets in the way of love.
One is the push the other is shove,
And honestly being in the middle *****.

I keep telling myself I need someone
But I guess that's not true
No, I don't need someone,
I just need you

You told me to give my love to someone who deserves it because you certainly didn't.
But isn't that the paradox of them all, because all I want is to give you my love, and you don't see yourself the way I do.

I can't even describe this feeling.
I'd feel naive for calling it love
But what else do you call this emotion that rises inside of me every time I see you smile
What do you call making someone go insane?
What do you call all those 11:11, and birthday wishes spent on you, hoping, praying this would work out.
You never go to sleep and wake up thinking about someone who you just think is 'okay'

You are so much more than okay.
I don't even know what it is about you.
It's like the mystery cards in
a game of clue
You don't quite know what they are, but nobody else has them.
So that's why I've decided I can't
move on .
I almost laugh at the thought. How could someone like you ever be replaced?
So yes I would do almost anything for you, but moving on?
Getting over you?
Giving my love to someone else?
No.
That is one thing that I won't do.
Not because I choose not to, but it's physically impossible,
I'm sorry to say, and you'll just have to get over it.

You may pity me,
Think I'm a complete idiot
And yes, I agree 100%
I know it's like standing in the middle of a busy street,
I'm just bound to get hit,
But I'm fine with that,
If there's at least a chance
Of changing your mind.

So I guess what I'm saying is
Can we just try?
We've already been down this road
Let's just venture farther this time,
Find a new way to go
And sure maybe we'll get lost
But I'm already lost, so I don't have much to lose.

It can't be much worse,
So I figure it has to get better.
What ever happens, no matter what path life takes,
I know one thing.
Time will bring one of two things:
You,
Or the strength to move on.
And it's comforting to know
That one day
I will be
Okay
First poem, so here goes nothing.

— The End —