are you drinking your water,
and sleeping in later?
i still care for you
do you still skip breakfast,
and get so blasted
that you tell me you love me too?
do you still live at home,
and think it's cool to smoke--
is your *** stuck in high school?
'cause i outgrew cheap alcohol
and skipping sleep to catch your call
and wishing i could be just like you

i escaped the suburbs
i didn't mean to leave you
but of course, i would.
you don't love me anymore
i won't believe you like before
but of course, i would.
i made a life of my own
i'm much happier alone
but of course, i'd relapse for you

pants on fire
you're a ***** ******* liar
you don't care about me.
you're still manipulative,
can't hold a conversation
without hurting my feelings--
but touch me where you know
i'll feel it in my bones
and babe i'll be leaving.

i escaped the suburbs
i didn't mean to leave you
but of course, i would.
you don't love me anymore
i won't believe you like before
but of course, i would.
i made a life of my own
i'm much happier alone
but of course, i'd relapse for you

sometimes i wonder why i left
'cause i miss my mother.
but separation's for the best
thanks for the reminder.
i want you to hear me--
i'm afraid to scream--
you made a mess of me--
i don't want to be mean--
i'll put oceans between us,
i don't want to forgive you,
to love you is useless
i can't help it if i do

Darling, I see
The ocean calls you back
and far away from me.
I'd wait for you
until the sun goes down
and turns into the moon.
Again, again, again...

i will cut out
pieces of myself
and set them aside
for you
eat them up,
why don't you?
i hope it tastes nice
me -- bitter poison
in your stomach

call me sometime
when you get a chance
texting doesn't
help me understand
the situation

kiss me softly
when you come home
don't talk angry--
fighting never goes
anywhere nice

I have missed you
did you miss me?
I'm still the same
but I can see
that you're not

I thought that I'd outgrow you
like I do everything else
I leave all my loves behind
collecting dust on the shelf

it hurts to know that
I'm not the one to hurt you
that I don't possess potency
enough to break your
heart
it breaks mine

i know
that i'm
pretty;
i never
asked for your
opinion

plants know
their flowers are
pretty;
they never
asked to be
picked

I’m going to eat myself alive
When I’m tired I get hungry
I wish I had the power
To turn myself off and sleep

It’s exhausting to think
They’re mutually exclusive—
Being happy
And being alive

I know in the back
Of my mind
That I--
I’ll be alright
But nothing makes me happy like it used to
Not even writing
Not even you

Ooh

I am going to scream
At the top of my lungs
Burn down the neighborhood
For a little bit of fun

I’ll shave my head
So I can feel the breeze
Hear the city and know
How it feels to live with ease

I know in the back
Of my mind
That I--
I’ll be alright
But nothing makes me happy like it used to
Not even writing
Not even you
It makes me angry, I don’t understand
How to grow up
Without following a plan

I’ve never been so afraid
I’ve never had so much to lose
I’ve been told I have potential
But how can I put that to use

Math will only take me so far
High school won’t teach me how to live
I am so much more—
I AM SO MUCH MORE THAN THIS