i am torn between two paths
wanting to separate
and wanting to conform
wanting to be unique
and wanting to be the same

                                                 i need time away

you’re wild
you run with the wind
you belong to nothing and no one
and i’ve always been afraid of telling you this 
because i was afraid you’d leave
but i forgot that saying nothing
wouldn’t change who you are.
this side of you was so enticing
charming
alluring
it was all i'd ever wanted to be

how many hours of my life have i spent
sitting on my bedroom floor
with my heart in my hands
waiting for someone
to place it back
inside me
so that i might heal
into what i do not know
since that person never came
and that gaping hole
has not healed
now
all i can do
is wonder