You take your health for granted

My mother left my father because he was ill a lot
She said couldn't be happy living like this
but  I get sick a lot now too
how long before she leaves me.

There is a war inside my body
Where fire and ice collide
There is a war inside my body
Where I am helpless but to watch
There is a war inside my body
There is a ticking clock
There is a war inside my body
My mind has given up
There is a war inside my body
My body might not be enough

I've been searching for an exit but I'm lost inside my head
everything is black now
And I feel dead

Standing at the top of a building I wonder how many had come before me
How many broken souls had stood here and wondered if they could fly
thought about testing if they could
and then stepped back, away from the ledge
using so much strengh to do so
because they're not allowed to jump
they have to be strong
because no one else is anymore
and it's all they have ever been allowed to be

They say the grass is greener on the other side
Is it true
Has your grass turned from a haunting black to a vibrant green
Green means go you know
You always said you'd give anything to run again
I hope you can run again