Emily Mackenzie

Emily Mackenzie Jun 2013

Untitled

when the ****
am I going to come first
when are you going to put me first
when are you going to put my feelings above his
when are my emotions going to matter
please tell me today
if it's now or never
for I need all the time in the world
to heal

Emily Mackenzie Jun 2013

krista

I can't believe you're defending him
I can't believe you're acting like this is okay
I can't believe you're going to let this happen
I can't believe you're going to lose me

I thought you were my ******* friend

Emily Mackenzie Apr 2013

In A Room Full of People(10w)

but
I
am
still
very sad
very sad
very sad

Emily Mackenzie Apr 2013

the grown up boogeyman

they say
when we grow up
our demons
will fade away

but how come
as I grow up
all the monsters
and the scary bits
are becoming bigger
and as malicious as ever

how come
as I grow up
the devils find comfort
in the piteous chaos
that is my life

how come
the boogeyman
created a nook
under my pillow
and continues to stay
for as long as he wants

he tells me
there is no use
being afraid of the dark
for he will still be with me
even in the light

Emily Mackenzie Apr 2013

labels and secrets

I will never stop kissing you
for I'd rather be labeled
a *****
or ****
or *****
than a ******

by kissing you
I am disabling the ability
to let my secrets loose
and enabling the potential
to stay hidden
for a long time

Emily Mackenzie Apr 2013

white

they buried her in white
seventy years
before her time
was supposed to be up

they buried her in white
for they thought she was pure
pure in her mind
pure in her heart

they buried her in white
to disguise and distract
from the bruises and cuts
that stuck to her body
like tattoos

they buried her in white
but beneath the white
were the colours of her life

her heart was blue
her lips were purple
her eyes were black
and her wrists were red

they buried her in white
to preserve the little girl
they used to know
while trying to accept
the big girl
she'd never grow up to be

Emily Mackenzie Apr 2013

kt

I remember
when you used to call

I remember
when you stopped

I remember
when I became funny

I remember
when you didn't let it go

I remember
when you turned

I remember
when you told me to **** myself

I remember
when you laughed when I tried

I absolutely believe in god
because I've experienced
the devil