little tiny heart compression
a Dorian Grey of my expectations
decay and grime has covered my trust
hoping for a little boy to grow up

My broken heart still beats as fast when your eyes cross over mine shreds of our life before never leave my mind.

Can't help that longing feeling for your touch again how can I move on when I never began

Take me back to the happy times when tears never fell for fear, pain was a distant memory and our love was real

Remember when we were no longer just a fling truth was more important and lies were never our thing

Then the snap back to a harsh reality when love was never the main goal but something dark in between

strangers who used to know each other all too well forgot about love and learned about hate

Take me back to the happy times when tears never fell for fear, pain was a distant memory and our love was real

Those times have left leaving broken shards and memories behind can't apologize enough for loving too much

I know I pushed and maybe got angry but I loved you so much maybe you could accept me

I'm sorry for what I did, I'm sorry I ****** up maybe sometimes love can just never work out

What do I want
Well a lot of things
To finish my novel
There's a start
Keep up friendships
Maybe more writing
Try and find someone
Worth writing about
Maybe enough to love
Wow I’m getting old
A lot of things
That need to be done
Like get a job
Or register for college
A lot of things....
What do I want?
I don't know

Every day I miss you
the way you held my hand
remember when...

you left me broken
forgotten is the way
we used to love

Everyday I miss you
more then ever before
your bright smile

the way your friends talk
behind my back
pain more then you know

Everyday I miss you
the feel of you against me
the feeling of my heart breaking


Everyday I miss you
Everyday It kills me
Everyday I wish

I could hate you
But, I can't because
Everyday I miss you

Doesn't matter what I do
Never good enough for you
No matter how hard I try
I love you
Doesn't sound as true
Look at me
I owe my life only to you
I wrote this for you
Remember me
Im still your little girl
Look at me
I am just like you
Trembling over egg shells
Begging to be seen

bases on the character Blanche DuBois from Streetcar Named Desire a play by Tennassee Williams*

Crushed white satin
Hot baths* on warm days
Polka music makes me sway
That young man I wish had stayed

Light dances around me
Never daring a touch
Here in the lantern light
All a lady has is her looks

Stranger Stranger everywhere
Darkness always a little too near
Shep oh Shep where are you dear?
"I don't know you" please get off

For star and the common pig
I leave no words of fancy
For now I sit with pen an paper
In the light of a padded room

and the piano was still slow and *blue

Tight unloving spaces
Squeezed between January
And our next December

Pleading with time
To allow our love
Just a little bit longer

Our life together
Shoved in a box that
You locked away forever