Warning* *This is a really messed up poem, If you would like an explanation please message me

Hush hush
Don’t say a word
Mommy met a man
She said daddy can’t know

That man holds her
Whispering “I Love You”
Which Mommy says too
But… daddy doesn’t know

As Daddy snores
I see Mommy slip out
I lay in the back
Seeing the man Daddy doesn’t know

But Daddy wakes up
Tries to track them down
Every motel
Nowhere to be found

But, I am here first
I just wanted to help
So I pulled the trigger
And all the lights went out

Mommy, splattered in red
Daddy now will never know
Cause I took Daddy’s gun
Mommy say goodnight

The end
New beginning
of a new page
My old story
Here standing tall
Facing it all
By myself
Here I am
At the end
Watching my world
Crumble at your feet
An the new life rising
Here I am
Again
At the end
Still
Loving you

Darkness and silence become my prison
As I wait for no one to save me
The hard floor, my new home
And the hot air my coffin
Here I am stuck in motion
The day just may have gotten worse
Hours fly by like centuries
Stuck here, within the mind
I was told wasn’t right
Here I am stuck with only myself
No war, no judgment, no more pain
Just me
In my dark and silent elevator
My no man’s land of time

Once when I was brave
I climbed a mountain high  
Dancing on the peaks
Watching the birds fly by

Up here on my mountain top
I have no reason to impress
Or any need to say goodbye
My old life wasting away

Those challenges that shaped me
Long forgotten down below
As I grip tight the rusting key
To the heart, bravery broke

Hiding behind fake smiles
Watching for signs of life
Deep down where hate lives, the pain grows
Love’s shattered heart, sews itself back together
Screaming through dull green eyes
Gripped red hair, as panic runs wild
Wondering what others must think
All with a pretty bow of insecurity and desperation
Trying hard to impress…Everyone
A pen in one hand
A knife in the other
Writing about pain, that never goes away
All behind that familiar smile
Everyone loves
But they can’t know the real me.

breathing in and out
looking foward, ready to shout
the day might have started
but my brain just won't function
it's funny how they demand my attention
yelling out my name
won't win you this game
keep on playing it
while I lay down and sleep a bit
the weekend hangover
taking over

Rising from the ashes
Born anew for the world to see
Flying high above the sky
Reaching true potential
Being better than the rest
Better, being put to the test
No more mistaken steps
Up and away time will fly
When now turns into then
I will disappear for good
In a puff of smoke
The end