I'm scared.

I'm scared to show you who I really am;
to make myself vulnerable.

I'm scared because you're all I really want.
I'm scared because I think you're different.

But I don't think things will change.
I'm never the exception.
I never will be.

I'm the rule.
And the rules always end up broken.

The silence of the night surrounds me
I'm wrapped in a thick, warm, cocoon of freedom.
Nothing can interrupt me
as I listen
to my slow, soft heartbeat.
I close my eyes
and unwind my tangled thoughts.

You made me love you
and I hate myself for
falling
so quickly
so smoothly

and then you stepped away to watch me crash,
splat

That hurt.

I'm lost.

Could you,
Maybe
Point me in the right direction?