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Emily Alyssa Mar 2013
I'm like Humpty Dumpty
You can't keep breaking me
And then putting me back together
Because pretty soon all the kings horses
And all the kings men won't be able to put me back together again
Soon I'll be so broken beyond repair
That you'll have spoiled me for anyone else
Who may have wanted me in the future
So I hope you're happy with yourself
Emily Alyssa Mar 2013
I thought I was happy
Happy without you
That I would be perfectly okay
But I was so wrong
Without your constant compliments
And longing lustful glances
And occasional inappropriate touches
I don't know who I am
I feel like I'm not beautiful enough
Like I'm some forgettable face in the crowd
Not worth your time
Or your fantasies
So when I starve myself to death
And bleed out in my bathroom tub
I want you to know
That in order for me to see myself how you did
I had to take such extreme measures
Ones that are going to end killing me
Emily Alyssa Mar 2013
Remember that time we talked all night?
Remember that time you told me stories for hours on end?
Remember that time we walked together?
Remember that time we played footsie at McDonald's?
Remember that time we walked alone in the dark?
Remember that time we went hiking?
Remember that time you would catch me when I fell?
Remember that time you pretended to push me in the lake?
Remember that time I held you tight?
Remember that time outside the house?
Remember that time you held my hand so I didn't fall?
Remember that time you gave me mittens?
Remember that time you yelled at your friend for scaring me?
Remember that time you bought me dinner?
Remember that time we spoke?
Cause from the things you've been saying
I'm starting to think you don't
And maybe I shouldn't remember those times either
Emily Alyssa Mar 2013
I don't get where I went wrong
How was I supposed to know
That when we sat in the snow
Or when we shared food
Or cuddled at the basketball game
Or during all those piggyback rides you gave me
Or even all those times we spent alone together
That you were "in love" with me?
Emily Alyssa Mar 2013
I miss those days:
   When you would hold me
   When you told me it would be okay
   When sitting on your lap was the safest place in the world
   When I could hold your hand
   When you could keep the nightmares away
   When you'd call me in the middle of the night to check on me
   When you'd make me mind my manners
   When I was cold and you would give me your coat
   When you wouldn't complain if I cuddled with you
   When you'd go anywhere with me
   When you'd find me if I was lost
   When you'd play dress up with me
   When you'd tell me everything would turn out fine when I was crying
   When you knew what to say to make me laugh
   When you promised never to hurt me
   When I was your girl
Emily Alyssa Mar 2013
I know I have no right but I can't stop
I shouldn't be here at four in the morning in tears
Over something I did, something I won't admit fault for
But I need you, I need you so bad
I can't talk with the others like I can with you
But you should have a normal relationship
But you only have eyes for me and that terrifies me.
So even if it kills me, I'm going to let you go
Because it's selfish of me to keep you
When I'm hung up in a fantasy world
Emily Alyssa Mar 2013
You say I'm a stupid kid
  At least I'll learn
You say I'll fall apart if I follow my heart
  At least I'll learn
You say I'm ******* crazy
  At least I'll learn
You say if I play with fire I'll burn
  At least I'll learn
You say I'm useless
  At least I'll learn
But I'll never make excuses
  At least I've learned
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