I'm so tired
I'm tired of chasing after you
I'm tired of guys leaving me
For my best friend
I'm tired of trying to keep you in my life
I'm just tried of you
I wanna tell you off and tell you to leave me alone
But I can't
I'm tired of trying to be there for you
When your never there for me anymore
I'm tired of crying
And I'm so tired of hurting everyday because of you

Laying awake every night
Just trying to get you off my mind
Time to time I leave the windows open
To listien to the sounds of outside
On this night it rains
Oh how I love the rain
Theres something about it that makes me feel so alive
Makes me think of new begnings
New memories I can make
Makes me think there's somthing in store for me
The sound of the rain takes the fear and te feel of depression away
It washes memories of you away for a bit
It is my only safe place

In my heart i know I still love you
In my heart I know I shouldn't care
I tell myself I don't care. I don't know if it's working
In my heart I wanna let go so bad
Could this be true love?
I don't what's going on cause I'm young
How can the rest of me not care about you at all but when my heart goes on loving you
In my heart there's 10000 feelings

I built my walls up to high
To high that I'm only hurting myself
Everything is fine we love eatch other a lot
But cause I got hurt so much i feel like it's gonna happen again and I don't know how I'm gonna take it this time if it happens

She once felt like an angle
She had beautiful wings
But one day she fell
When she woke up
Her wings where bounded to her
She couldn't fly no more
All because she fell in love with
With an already broken angle

I care to much
I help everyone but never my self
When I need help I feel like there's no one
To help me
When I start to cry I feel all that sadness inside
Just sitting in my stomach
After I cry it off
I go back to
Acting like nothing is wrong
Making people believe Im the strong one
Back to saying nothing is wrong
I'm a person just like everyone else
I need help I get hurt
But lately I feel like there's no one around to help me

4 months since I started talking to you
1 week I was with you
Every other day just friends
But in that time we became close
In a way your like a brother I wish I had
But there's a big part of me
That dosint see you like that
Somewhere a long the lines
I don't know how
But
I started loving you
But I'm afraid to tell you

He walked me home as it started to rain a bit. We didn't really talk at all. I poked him a few times cause the silence was getting wired. We got to my apartment building I hugged him goodbye then I turned around to go through the door but when I turned back to see him he was smiling at me as he walked out the door. I felt myself smile and suddenly I felt a lot better then I did