I have loved much
And met many
But I've never come across
Something as exquisite as you
And that my dear,
Is the most phenomenal love
A person can feel

I will not show my disappointment
I will not express my sadness
I will sit quietly and I will wait
I have always done my best
To be calm
But I have failed many times
I will always be a failure
But I will fail silently

Sometimes my wrists ache to be cut
My body begs me to give it the feelings it craves
I am not allowed to explore that part of myself
I am not allowed to scratch up my skin
My body is screaming now
I can not keep it at bay much longer
I can not control myself
I will slip up
I will bruise my own skull
It will be beautiful

I promise I am trying
My very best
It is rarely even enough

I've not forgotten you
No, my sweet, I could never
Hush my love do not cry
I am here
Let me hold your head
In my lap
And drag my smooth fingers
Across your soft cheek
Lay with me, my angel
Let me become a part of you
Let your body meld with mine
Together we are superhuman
We are capable of much
We are defeated by little
Our love will save you
I will save you
Until we are one entity
A single, beating heart
Just for you and I

I am the needless and the needy
I am the forgetful and the forgotten
I have been neither here nor there
Yet I have seen everything
And been everywhere
I am the friendly and the friendless
I am the hopeful and the hopeless
I have stayed in my spot
Yet I have crossed the seven seas
And have swam the deepest depths
I am not everything I seem
Yet I am so obvious
I am not sad
Yet I am rarely happy
I am everything
Yet I am nothing

I am not allowed to feel
Disappointment
I am not allowed to show
Sadness
Fear
Anxiety
This is what is not allowed
I am allowed to
Cry silently
I am allowed to show
Happiness
Joy
Patience
This is what is allowed
This is what is expected
Of a girl like me