And I've loved you entirely
Greedily
Grasping at the edge of your soul for comfort
I've stolen the remains of your empty heart
For my own sick pleasure of piecing it together
To marvel at the finished product
Of a shiny porcelain doll
My entire being, surrounds the bleakness of your scattered mind
Spotless, without reason
The purpose of my shallow breaths
Lost in the sound of your voice
Intoxicated, stumbling blindly, drunk off the rise and fall of your heavy chest
Thick skulled and battled to fracture
You fight sleep
You fight me to stay awake
You clutch to your last ounce of awake
To stare deep into the black eyes of mine
That hover reality momentarily
Only to flee to the imaginative world we created in our clumsy childish minds
Falling in love quickly
Breaking barriers
Defying absolute gravity in an incomprehensible manner
Longingly invisible to all outsiders
Breathtaking inevitability of a crash
The kind that pops your ear drums
And all noises turn into the muffled screams of your own mind
But love
Your love
My love
Pulls sound into these hollow ears
Holds my feet to the hot cement
Beats my heart unsteadily
Creates beauty
Creates life
In the simplest of ways
Your smile etches out a life I had never envisioned

I added 2 and 2 together
Expecting a value of 4
But it always equals less
And it never equals more

I’ve been hoping for a change
A sudden halt in time
But you’ve never been anyone’s
Yet you’ve always been mine

I have loved you for forever
And it seems I cannot show
Just how much I need to love you
And how much you need to know

I can’t fathom why you love me
I can’t grasp just why I’m sad
But you’re everything I’ve needed
And you’re the best thing that I’ve had

This feeling in my stomach
It doesn’t seem to tame
I’ve been trying to hide my hurt
I have cried myself to shame

You are 2 and 2 together
You have always equaled 4
You have never equaled less
But you sometimes equal more

Hello old friend,

It’s been a while

Once, I knew you well

But I’ve changed since then

Though you look quite the same

Do you remember

Our affair?

When the chill of your touch

Kissed my wrist and I thought about

How your lipstick left a stain on my skin

But it wasn’t lipstick

Was it, old friend?

Do you remember the time

We took a bath together

And my love for you

Was so strong

I nearly died?

But you were trying to **** me,

Weren’t you, old friend?

I let you lead me

To the darkest parts of myself

But you weren’t my friend at all

Were you?

You were my enemy

You wore only silver

And red

But the red was mine

Wasn’t it, my enemy?

I’ll never forget you

But I have tried my best not to remember you

You ruined me, my enemy

You ruined my skin

You ruined the most innocent part of me

Didn't you, my blade?

I have cried for every freckle

Every scar and pore your skin has acquired

I did not cry tears of melancholy

But tears of joy and admiration

That this godless earth has created

Such immaculate beauty

In you

I’m not saying that you’re delicate

What I’m saying is this,

If you were a daffodil

And I was the wind

I’d cease my angry assault through the sky

To save you