Part 1;* *Love
I want to climb inside your skin,
Make a home in your brain,
And listen.
I want to know more about you than anyone,
To predict what you’ll say,
But to listen regardless,
Because I love the way you say it.
I want to understand,
To feel each line on your skin,
And scar on the walls of your heart,
And to know the stories that made them.
I want to know you so well,
That sometimes we forget we’re two people,
When it’s late,
And we’re awake,
More comfortable together
Than we are in our own flesh.
Let me in. Let me wear you.
Let me know what it’s like to suffer your downs,
And ride your ups,
And I’ll show you my wounds,
And expose to you my thoughts,
Until we know each other
Better than we know ourselves.
Part 2; The Boy
If I am careless,
if I allow my mind to wander,
I sometimes still
taste
the smoke from your lips.
It’s the wrong place,
and the wrong time,
but my heart still
jumps
into my throat
when I remember your touch.
If I could pick up the phone,
and tell you how I miss those
stolen kisses,
I would.
But jeopardy terrifies me
and I’d rather not dive headfirst
down that whirlpool just yet.
Part 3; The Reconciliation
I know that we used to be
so different,
so full of life,
so full of love.
That you were once
energetic,
excited, and
enthralled,
and I, for a time,
was compassionate,
caring and
considered.
I know that we were once
different people,
with different stories
and different hopes.
We may have lost our way,
become somebody we wouldn’t even have
recognised as being
us,
if we met ourselves 5 years ago,
but remember that
we recognise each other now.
I know your innermost
thought
and your
deepest distaste,
and I will
never
ask you to be anybody but
who you are today.
We might not be the same people
we were when we were 15,
but we are people who have
grown together,
and laughed together,
and loved together,
and we are people who have shared
so much
it would be impossible to leave this partnership
whole.
We have fused souls.
And as much as we may reminisce
and remember who we
used to be,
let’s just tonight remember
something more important.
Let us remember
who we are now,
and that it would be more
difficult for me to
tear myself from you
than to tear myself in half.
Part 4; The Decline
Postpone.
The silence at home
kills me,
so what’s the harm in
one more smoke,
anyway?
I spent more time
travelling miles to see you,
than I would ever care to
admit,
battling on bikes,
through sleet and snow,
to spend 30 minutes
over coffee.
Where did that go?
Now my house is not
my home,
because space to breathe is
scarce
and I am breathless just thinking
of the travel to my front door.
What do you do when the foundations
become unglued?
Nothing can rebuild
something that’s not demolished,
but destitute.
Part 5; The End
I can see our future,
Clearly,
For the first time,
And I hate it.
There are no fuzzy young faces,
No unknown sticky fingers,
No pattering of
A strangers’ feet
That somehow sound like
Home.
All I see are false smiles
And fake conversations
And the knowledge that
I’ll never
Know you
Again.
This isn't part of my challenge.