Emanuel Martinez

Emanuel Martinez Dec 2012

Hey there! There's no time to worry
Sure I shoulda kissed you
Coulda held you, shoulda shown you
How right I was for you

How shy was I, how loud were you
All the trouble it coulda caused us
To lock our lips together
No, no problem, just endless possibilities

Couldn't gift my kisses, to your lips
Our bodies having trouble
Staying close, hip to hip
Without your lips cooing in my ear

My lips quivering, sensing
You inching toward me
Fell off balance, off center
Giggling till you backed away

Guess it wasnt meant to be
Because having had given
First kiss away, it wasn't you
Still it filled a good part of me

And after this kiss, we're both sill alright
Still friends, sill fond, still moving on,
But living on

December 14, 2012

Emanuel Martinez Dec 2012

Mankind, Change's Gaining Ground

***** water lilies
Fiery wondering thoughts
Precise eagle eyes

Ego, they guard

Mankind better run
Material eating; nature
Purifying souls

Change's gaining ground
Man you're going down
Always thinking weaponize

Raising minds' vice
Fast blind downfall

Self-inflection; death's allure

Trapped man
Life's insecure

Hunting own kind
Fools reigning mad
Blood drenched rule

Cycle mind around
Sense losing force
Just ****** man

No blink, grant death
Leave fellow man
Only one win

Mankind better run
Material eating, nature
Purifying souls

Change's gaining ground
Man you're going down
Always thinking weaponize

Human demise
You canonize
Only trivial

Mankind better run
Man you're going down

Child keep up
For you, we're waiting on

December 14, 2012

Emanuel Martinez Dec 2012

A Lover's Exceptional Existence

In our life, time won't matter
Ooh don't you worry baby
I'll be right here waiting for you

In our future, I see we'll be together
Ooh don't you fret baby
Right now, we might be too young to settle

In our world, there will be no trouble
Ooh don't you get scared baby
You'll be alright till I come safe you

In our thoughts, there will be no words of sorrow
Ooh don't you think too hard baby
My lips will one day capture you

In our hearts, appropriations will be on loan
Ooh don't be too quick to sell out baby
When I come around, you'll be mine forever

Ooh don't you worry about me baby
Stop thinking about me, until the time is right
I'll always be here for you

Until that day, to have loved you
Is what I'll be proud of, Is what I hope for
Even if I don't know who you are

Till that moment when I know you are
I'll be ready; happy knowing you exist

December 11, 2012

Emanuel Martinez Nov 2012

Ode to the Immigrant Child

I’ve reflected a lot about desperation.
We as undocumented students
who have such high expectations of ourselves have this desperate
desire that quite frankly strips our ambitions of malice and of hidden
agendas.
We will be lucky if we are able to take the next step in our
precarious/ uncertain paths.

Therefore, our intentions have to remain
as genuine (and thus more pure; more powerful) since we are at the
mercy of those who help us continue to crawl along to our dreams.

That
hunger, that desperation, that desire and how it has pushed us, has
propelled us to the point where we have shed tears, and perhaps blood;
and as a result we have showcased a sincere and humble brilliance and
authority in our ability to thrive and succeed where it is virtually
impossible.

November 8, 2012

Emanuel Martinez Oct 2012

WE

I keep thinking of you
No, I wasn't expecting you
Who would have known

You were so close
I want to kiss you
I want to hug you
I wanna hold you

This first time
Felt so familiar
Like we knew each other from long ago

And I held on to you
Stayed right there close to you
Let you touch my lips
Wrap your hips, with fast grip

You gave me one kiss
When shyly I said I didn't know how
And then I couldn't stop from searching for your lips
Kissing every feature of you

I keep thinking of you
No, I wasn't expecting you
Who would have known
I would be here with you

Emanuel Martinez Oct 2012

Not A Single Time

Every time you tie me down
Every time you hold me up
Every time you breathe warmth down my spine
Every time you sound so kind

Not a single time
You hold back
All the bravery in your heart
You pour over mine

Once you rise
Once you wake
Once you've let your thoughts fly
Once your heart's filled

Not a single time
You quiet down
All the words in your heart
With them, you inspire me

When you dream at night
When you daydream in the afternoon
When you ponder about life
When you inhale, exhale, breathe

Not a single time
You get sad
All the happiness in your heart
You transfer in smiles and laughter to me

All you have may be nothing
All the world can go crazy
All we can hold on to, may be we
All we can do, is be free

But never will you be afraid
To give me
All the love in your heart
Knowing you belong to me

October 24, 2012

Emanuel Martinez Oct 2012

Banquets of Contempt

I was broken, I was severely unafraid
Nothing mattered anymore
Because I had already lost
My family and my friends

And my depression was kicking in too hard
I wasn't trying, I wasn't caring enough
Love was never enough
Though there it was in overwhelming amounts

I never belonged to anyone
No one ever lived for me
And life was being suffocated from me
That emptiness within me was bruising me

How polite, how unapologetic
How fast, hurdling down, my decisiveness
I started tumbling down, without fear
Shameless, without nerves or apathy

I was brilliant in the limelight
But behind the shadows I was being swallowed
By anonymity and solitary confinement
The darkness was strangling me

I left everything I was, to reach everything
I thought I could be
Didn't I get everything I wanted?
Yeah, I thought this was the plan

But I became someone else
Other desires became attached to me
My heart changed, my mind bent, my thoughts evolved
I lost focus, in sight of love and desire

I never bothered to figure
What it meant to be happy, within me
The work was tedious, but only on the exterior
No time allotted to the dwindling interior

I was broken, I was severely unafraid
Nothing mattered anymore
I could be starving a thousand times more
I've been disillusioned many times more by banquets of contempt

October 12, 2012