It hurts at first but not for long.
Maybe it’s because at first you don't seem to mind letting them see you hurt,
But after a while, you just want to keep it all in with you.
You feel the pain must be hidden and the feeling bottled up
To an extent not even your eyes show traces of the loneliness and pain you feel
Pain hidden well inside it's like it’s not even there but lurks behind your eyes.
Pain only shown in the things you posses and in your desire for solitude.
You saw her attempt to hide the tears she had shed right in front of you and you felt like not even the pain she had physically inflicted on you could match what you felt then
You felt as though nothing in the world was more painful than the feeling of helplessness you felt then,
You wanted to take it all away and keep it to
yourself.
You felt like reaching out to her and showing her that you're deeply affected by her pain, But did not dare cause you where overwhelmed by the fear of opening the door holding your pain.
Pain hidden deep in the abyss of your heart.
You can't tell them how many times you have
attempted to expose this pain, for each time you tried you froze. You have never known why. Maybe it was because of talking to them,
Listening to their laughter
And looking at the curve of their smile made it all
go away...
...for a while. But it all came back once they left.
You hope someday you will expose this fear you never show, that they may see this person hidden within and hope they still look through him and see you....