I want you here with me
I want to see you and feel something
you make me scream and curse
at the moon
I curse the day I met you
I'm falling apart and you don't know
and even if you will
you don't give a ****
you live inside me
you're in my head, you're stuck in my brain
in my fingerprints
my cheeks
my whole skin
I see you everywhere I go
I hate you!

I put you in my eyes and i hold your hand
I couldn't see you while
you were standing next to me
and now
that you are not here
I see you everywhere.

I haven't seen your face for a long time
I thought that maybe if I don't see you
soon, I'll forget your eyes
and your lips
and forget the sparkle in your eyes
but seeing you today...
my heart ripped in so many pieces
I want to stop hurting inside.
it's 1:29 am and I can't close
my ******* eyes
because everytime I close mine
I see yours
and your ******* smile
please stop living in my head
stop playing with my emotions
and let me go.
I let you go 7 months ago
but you're still alive inside my chest
you are the demon that is ******* with my brain
my hands are shaking when
I think of you
you're making me sick
go away!

I wanted to write a poem about you
but all I can see when I close my eyes
is your patience face
and wandering eyes,
how your fingers touch my face
and how your voice grows flowers in my lungs.

you need to know that you
are my weakness.
you are my favourite flaw and mistake
because at the end of that
when is 3am in the morning
I crave your name and your breathe
to fill my lungs with sweetness
and I don't know which one is worse,
to crave your presence
or to know you're next to me
but I disgust you.

he could be standing right next to you
and you wouldn't know
so be careful who you open to
and who you trust.
and try to keep your soul pure
an safe.
you don't want a dance with the Devil
choose carefully the path you wanna take
your mind is going to play tricks on you
and sometimes you'll question your own existence.
and you will want to hurt yourself
you will want to do bad things to you
you will be a prisoner of your own mind
you have to keep your head clear
maybe he is watching you now
of course you don't see him
you wouldn't see him even if
he is standing
in front of you
he can be beautiful
maybe he has hazel eyes
and messy hair
and you like when his hands are
around your waist.
and you think he's kissing away your pain.
we have our own demons
and maybe He is living inside of you.

Of course you are the kind of person
who deserve so much more than
I could give you.
I am sorry I'm so childlish sometimes
and make you angry
maybe someday you will
understand why hurricanes are named after people
you should've understand by now
that I'm so complex
and I don't like when someone pretends to know me
I hate it when someone want to think for me
I don't need that
I didn't let anyone to completly understand me
and I never let anyone crawl into my skin
just because I sent you some pictures with my cuts
it doesn't mean ****
probably if you were in front of me
I'd push you away
I'm sorry that I am so mean
but I learned that you don't have to say beautiful words
just to manage people.
When I said to you that at the end of the day
are just myself and the demons from my head
I meant it.
you are so kind
and you deserve someone who puts stars in your eyes
and daisies on your lips
and you know that I'm not the one
I will never be.
I'm just a broken window
I'm nothing beautiful
I don't understand
how I ended up like this.

everything is about YOU
I like to write your name
on my wrist
on my paper
everywhere.
because that's how I see the world
I see YOU everywehere
and maybe because of that
I'm using so much
the word "YOU" when
I write something.

you gave me your heart
and you told me to keep it safe
mine was broken.
so I took from yours
little pieces thinking
I could fix my heart
but I was wrong
I'm giving your heart back
and I'm sorry
now your heart is smashed
and mine is still shatered
and damaged