Desperation rots in my stomach as knots toss and turn in war with every bone in my body.
There's no escaping the poisoned feeling that consumes every thought and movement,
seeping and lingering in each and every day.
Moments of calmness are all that's left as a sea of confusion crashes against the sand,
leaving me broken and battered like a ship tossed to land.
I look up and down and see no end to the shadow that engulfs my entirety,
caused by the light that falls over my past.
There's no turning back,
Only sideways and around.
leading me in the same direction I was before.
I am stuck in a maze built by my own insecurities and need for control
and now I'm left in the corners
the depth of my very own creation

I am broken.