Most of my life, is a blur

undeniable words that slur.

I have my share of secrets,

who knows if ill keep them.

I like to think of all the reasons

the reasons I dont fit

All the reasons I have to want an old life back

A life in a dream..

but i wake up and see it isnt what it seems

Reality is mean

I think of all the resons Im fine that Ive changed

Still changing.. not staying the same.

So out of place

id be a shotting star in outter space.

And here i am

not looking back

I dont what what I had

I have what ive got

and this is just me

moveing forward.

well see what we see.

I sit on the far side of the room

looking at you

not looking at me

and I see her

and I see him

and I feel tears

and I run from fears

And I know that none of us know

that we dont always have to smile

we dont alays have to put on a show

I see fears

I see tears

tears on him

tears on her

I sit on the far side of the room

looking at you

not looking at me

and I taste

the saly sweet of my sadness

going down down down

Im going down down down.

What if.
what if, the world spun the other way.
Then would we change.
What if.
What if, everyone could just.. be okay
then could people say
what they really want to say?
Like
she loves her and he loves him.
And sometimes love wins.
What if.
What if, it didnt matter who got paid
then would less be great
What if.
What if the world spun the other way?
I hope one day we change.

Honey im blind,
just roaming in in my mind
and what do i find?
just a little lost girl
traped by her thoughts
mind as vast as the world
baby im scared
dont take me back there
no!no!
this is not fair
let me out
i need fresh air
just one last breath
then i can accept death
the death of my heart
dont you love to tear it apart
the death of my soul.
I NEVER WAS WHOLE.