Oh little baby child of mine,
Not just in my body, but in my mind.
I won't ask for forgiveness , where would I start,
One day we'll be re-united, I place my hand on my heart.
They say you cannot love what you do not yet know,
But, you are a little person with a right to live and grow.
Had things been different the situation more clear,
I'd let nobody harm you or even get near.
As I place my hand on my tummy I say 'good-bye',
I won't lose the pain from my heart or the tears from my eyes.

I stand by your grave and watch your smiling face,
My eyes weep and my heart does race.
I say you are lucky to have left it all behind,
In my heart I search for an answer to find.
...why it doesn't matter anymore, only now you are happy and no longer sore.

My tears they have not stopped flowing the pain it has not gone,
Those words they echo in my mind..'He's DEAD..your brother John'.

I know one day I'll meet you, how soon I do not know,
Waiting patiently for the call that says... 'It's time to go'.

The hurt and pain cuts me like a knife,
It's hard to believe at times I'm his wife.
I know there are two side to every story,
It's mostly over my side I worry.

Am I so bad so hard to bare,
Or are these problems one to share.
Where has the sharing gone to hide,
At times I feel he's not by my side.

Lost and alone is how I feel,
The feelings are so strong, almost unreal.
I can;'t go on and on like this,
and with this note I seal a kiss.
A kiss to represent my need to change,
All the bad things to re-arrange.

The end of an era, the end of the pain,
A promise made to each other that we will smile again.

Our love will live in each others heart forever,
But it's not enough anymore to keep us togehter.

Ten years have passed and we are hurting each other more,
Weak minds and bodies our hearts both sore.

Here's to the future and I hope this is the right choice,
I'll miss the tenderness of your touch and the love in your voice.

As I close a chapter in my life another one begins.
Like a library of books, shelf after shelf filled to the brim.
When everything that seemed so dark had suddenly shed light,
My Dad turns grey and helpless, like a child afraid of night.

And so the book of life reads on, each page of txt unknow.
Our destiny each and everyones to us shall not be shown.

Take in your arms each day you live and treat it like your last.
Look forward to the future and no longer dwell in the past.

Oh little Angel forever loved,
Surrounded by your family up above.
Robert & Amy by your side,
My three angels gone to hide.
Play safe and soft, gently remember this,
I send each one my love and gentle kiss.
My heart still aches the tears still flow,
I'm waiting patiently down below.
Oh how I wish I could have minded you so,
Katelyn, Robert & Amy I never wanted you all to go.

He means the world to everyone,  especially to Me.
Eights sons , my mum and my sister and then I make three.
Three women to nine men is the way we have combined.
The tears, the pain, they joy, the strongest bond of love you'll ever find.

He is older now and weaker but his heart to us has not changed.
The same love, advice and sternness and control still remains.
Respect is the solitary line through each and everyone.
It's the one thing we hang on to from mother daughters through to sons.

Friends forever we will always be,
But in a relationship there is no room for three.
The time is not right, although we hoped it was.
Another time further on is reserved for us.

The hurt I no longer want to feel,
If you are not there it is no longer real.
The hurt, the lonliness, the emptiness is back,
But it is only I , I need keep in tack.

One day maybe ! how soon I do not know,
Right here, right now I MUST let you go...Love You

His shadow glides past the window, and door opens wide,
That welcoming invitation to join him by his side.
The walk around is relaxed and warm,
The security and reassurance I'll come to no harm.

A week full of tension, all now in the past,
An hour to express, relax and sit fast.
I walk out the door my conscience now clear,
A smile on my face and no sign of a tear.

I'm happy I made the phone call and happier still,
another week, another visit and there will be several more ..there will .

A little voice told me today,
Just how he wants things his way.
Who can blame him.. not I,
Better to see him laugh than cry.
A family of three was the request he made,
When I said yes he went happily to bed.
The hope the trust I shall not break,
Sacrifices in life .. I'm willing to make.

I'm here in the present, and I know I've made the right choice,
There is no longer tenderness in your touch or love in your voice.
All the hurt and pain I'd gone through before,
Felt nothing compared to my numb body and mind so sore.

I can't take anymore, I promised I wouldn't,
I'm sure you weren''t capable and hoped that you couldn't.

Wrong once again , unpredictable and confused,
It has always been strange what kept you amused.

Hurt openly and apologise and then hurt again,
I must shut you out of my life if I am to remain sane.

We have a dad his name is Dave,
He's driving Mum to an early grave.
Every Sunday at ten we stand waiting again.

'I've no where to bring them and nothing to do'
'Ah hah' says mam I have the book for you.

Where did you get this book.. what a list!!
It's all with thanks to our local Nationalist :)

Broken hearted all alone,
Numbness, tiredness , all commonly known.
Too much too often, well worn out,
Tears, cold and sadness I want to shout.

No one to blame, no one but me,
Not only knowing the solution is me.
Only myself can pick me up,
Must keep going cannot stop.

Jamie and Hannah to think of, at times I wonder why?
Would they not both be better off if I would simply die.

I look at you and I catch my breath,
I felt I'd be alone till death.
The hurt the pain I had endured,
I need no one I felt reassured.
You have turned my life around,
When I am with you my feet don't touch the ground.
Kind, sincere, loving and true,
I open my eyes and .. Yes there's You.
Not sure what the future will bring,
Yet everyday with you my heart will sing.
So take my hand trust in what I say,
Fresh memories and true love is here to stay

She has been through the mill,
Every turn has been uphill.
When nearly there they push her down,
Not happy until her smile is a frown.
Sick and evil is all they are, the only way they know,
Time will do full circle and it will be them that go.
Stay strong and happy and stay content,
Here with your friends is where you are meant to be.
Strong family surround you now and forever,
You are not one bit stupid always more clever.
Both of them will drift apart, this thought will keep you strong within your heart.

Your day will come... they will come to You,
With all the love and strength you will say ..'We are Through'

It took you time to love us,
That we will try to understand.
But now that you are with us,
you will forever hold our hands.
The love we share is real and true,
And forever Daddy we will love you .
Through good times and bad times be forever by our side,
In years to come you'll look at us and your heart will fill with pride.

Daddy & Jack take me home,
I no longer want to be on my own.
Tired of fighting no will to go on,
While I close my eyes .. gently sing me a song.

A song to guide me on my way,
Let my body stay still and my mind sway.
There is not a single moment when I do not think of you,
And feel the pain within my heart and the strength of love for you.

Whether it be ten or two years passing for me the pain still lingers..my eyes still cry,
What does it feel like to be away from it all to stand above and see me fall

I want back the 8 years I lost without you, the years I could have been at home,
One day I hope to make up for them and find comfort of being home once again