I feel wounded
Your words and actions
They hurt me and haunt me
I could ask why
But why doesn’t lead anywhere
So why even bother
I both understand
And don’t understand
Friendship
What is friendship
Exactly
When it can be simultaneously
Ecstatic and
Hurtful
As we all evolve
What is a foundation of friendship
Built upon
When it seems to no longer exist
My inner child
Cries out
Enough
She feels hurt
Feels wounded
Feels tired
There’s such a feeling of
Tiredness
It’s overwhelming
Numb
Sometimes I numb out
Protecting myself from the hurt
Holistically I know
That to feel
Is to heal
But feeling hurts
It’s hurting me
To lean into
Those feelings
Of hurt
Of frustration
Of feeling like
What the **** happened
And why am I constantly misunderstood
Gah
It’s out
I’m misunderstood
I’m unique
I’m loving
I try to be kind
And yet
My words don’t resonate
My conversation doesn’t flow
My passions
Are separate
From those around me
Maybe I should just
Let myself be
Me
**** the misunderstandings
I can just express myself
And be me
But can I
Am I capable of that
And what if I’m judged
Hm but then the question is
Would I rather hold myself back
In fear of people’s judgements
Or fully express myself
And feel
Alive
The wounding will come
The wounding will go
I will be here
I hug myself
Sit in nature
Process the feels
I am a beautiful being
I am worthy of being loved
I deserve understanding
Yes I am
Yes I do
Yes
9/12/12