I lay outside
The wind sweeps through my hair, covering my eyes with my locks

This wind is a brisk cold, it chills my insides, making me feel alive
But at the same time, I can't survive the space between us

Pulling,

Ripping,

Tearing

Our relationship apart

Like a ticking bomb, I am waiting for it to happen, the day when you will pull away...

Come Gaze with me
At the stars that shine so bright
At the galaxies and nebulas
Hold my hand as we view the heavens
As we find ourselves among space

You peek into my eyes, and look at the picture of the sky that twinkles in my pupils, the reflection of pure beauty

I see a shooting star
It is so beautiful, so fragile, in a fraction of a second it is gone
I try to point it out to you, but still you stare into my eyes
You tell me nothing is more beautiful than them, there is no point in looking away, it would only bring sadness upon you

I kiss your lips, your cheek, your jaw bone, drag my lips across the contours of your neck

The sky erupts with beauty
It is both white and color filled at the same time
It is neither night or day as our tongues explore the inside of each others cheeks

No words could come within miles of describing this moment


Come gaze with me
At the stars that shine so bright
We will embrace and watch the sky explode in shooting stars
I will hold your hand as we view the heavens
And beyond

He walks me to the door
Like a gentleman should
Meanwhile, I think of things to say, filling the air with lighthearted and meaningless conversation

"Can you call me later when you get home?"

"Thanks for inviting me, it was fun!"

"Have fun skiing."

It was all said, it was all acknowledged

The only word that mattered to me was his one

"Wait..."

Thoughtfulness in his eyes, he moves closer to me...

Forgetfulness is a sin
I do not remember if my eyes closed,
If my foot popped like in movies,
Nor can I remember how long it lasted

I do remember the three words that slipped from my lips

"I love you"

The same three slipped his

It's hard to dwell on the idea that, in fact, it is over
After so long, the thought of us being separate beings once more was laughable
When I laughed, you laughed
When you cried, I cried
We thought for each other, we fought for each other
We were each other

And as I am forced to give back your things, it feels terminal, the fate of our relationship
Before, I felt as if this was just temporary
Our love was just under construction
But now I see that this is not so
Demolition crews have now moved in
To destroy all hope of repair
To eliminate all evidence of past events
To annihilate all memories

I look back at the past and wonder
Why had I not forseen
Why had I not predicted all the pain and suffering that has plagued me these last two months

But I realize that one must learn from others
One has to experience pain before better future choices can be made
The vast amount of information I have digested is far too valuable to wish away

In the end, everything happens for a reason
And I respect and honor my God, be Him Buddha or Jesus Christ, for teaching me this life long lesson