I didn't cry about you today
               it doesn't mean I love you less
               it doesn't mean I'm trying to forget you
I just don't know what it means to be without you.
I try to cope by pretending you are still alive.

Someone stole you from me.
From us.
How could they take you?

I don't know how to be now that you aren't.

Going nowhere

Glory lost.

Wating until death.

wasting time, wasting space.

Forcing affection and relationships

I feel like Dante betrayed-
        any hope I see turns out to only ruin me further

grinding. hollow. scared.

I can't go on.

I want to love you more than anything.
I want to be with you for the rest of my life.
You are my hopes, dreams, prayers. My unspoken wishes.

I love you more than life.
I want nothing to stand between us.
You are my soul.

I've lost you.
I can't fix this. I'm horrible.
You don't deserve this.
You were the worst, now I don't compare

This road we're on...it won't end well.
I'll **** you
I'll ruin your life.

The life you were rebuilding.
Let me walk away from you.

I love you. More than life.

Everytime I try to smile I think of you.
Everytime I try to laugh I think of you.
Everytime I try to live I think of you.

Of how you've forgotten me.
Of how you've used me.
Of how you've lied to me.

So for now I'll keep drinking, smoking and *******.
So for now I'll keep ignoring the hole you left in my chest.

For now.

Don't you know how much I believe in you? Don't you know how much I care?

Seeing your life fall out of place like this breaks my heart into pieces.

You're not as alone as you think, you're with me every minute.
I'd **** for you. I'd lie for you.
                       steal, scam and cheat.
Anything you would ask for, I would do my best to make it so.
                        Stop ruining yourself.
                         Stop expecting so little.

Be the man I know you are.

There is a place inside of you

Somewhere you've forgotten

It's the place that holds all that you once were.



There lies the dreams you had as a child.

The innocence and laughter.

This is where your strength is hiding.



But now you're jaded.

Bitter and angry.

You've wrecked your mind with drugs.

Ruined your heart with spite.



Please, find your way back there...

How the **** did this happen?
Two decades and nothing to show for it.

           Dreams unrealized.
           Plans forgotten.

Every day I'm closer to dying
And I have nothing to be remembered by.

I have no one. I am no one.

Candles, balloons, cake.
They make me gag.
It's all fake.
Just a distraction from the fact that we are dying and worthless.

**** birthdays.

I haven't felt this in a long time.
Hope, joy, enthusiasm.
I see good things now; I feel good things now.
My smile has lasted for hours.

This boy is driving me crazy.
I want to keep this feeling forever.
my heart is pounding, the butterflies are emerging.

And all because I heard you laugh and saw you smile at me.


and now with this joy comes the crushing doubt.
will he lose interest?
does he not really care at all?
is this just some game?

love *****.

Let's run away, forget all that we've become

We can leave tonight,
        take the first train out of here

Let's become the people we wish we were
No regrets, no depression, no anger.

We'll be in love and we'll be free.
You'll never be alone again, or have to do things on your own again.
You'll never be left out in the cold.

Forget those who have made us hate ourselves
               Those who have turned us into drones.

Run away with me.

Neon lights burned bright outside the bar.

Standing in their glow, she smoked her last cigarette.

With each exhale, she let go of a dream she knew she would never achieve.

.....

Is this what you want to read?
I'm sorry that I won't write that way, just because you say it's better.

Go **** yourselves.

You are the most beautiful creature I've ever met.
I want my life to be dedicated to you.

You are hurt, you are lost.

Let me help you.

You have all the potential the world can offer.
You have all the options.

You aren't alone anymore.

You make me feel alive. you make me want to cry.
You don't need to shoulder your burden alone.

I love you.

let's run away.
we could pack tonight; be gone as the sky starts to light.

If you leave without me, I'll spend the rest of my life waiting for your return.

Drown your thoughts in alcohol, but we both know it won't fix what's wrong.
Distract yourself with women, but we both know they're empty.

Go hop the trains, see the world.
I'll be here.
I'll be waiting.

And you'll never know.

Ourt blatant disregard for our own lives is what makes us beautiful

We instinctively dislike our surroundings more than others ever will.
And inspite of all this, we see the utmost beauty.
          More than they will ever imagine.
We appreciate the things most people take for granted
For we never know which sunrise will be our last.

We love deeper, laugh louder, cry harder.

Every day I wake up, I am in awe.
Every sunset could bring the end of my days.
              And I've accepted that.

I'm not meant to live forever.
I am temporary.

Any day may be the day I finally cause my heart to stop.
Any day may be the best I've ever had.

Some say we're tragic. I say we're alive.
You are the unwilling soldiers of a revolution you've never heard of.
Living lives you don't believe in.

We are the guerrilla warriors.
Fighting for freedom against the rest of the world.
We may never be free but we fought.

You followed.

So no, I'm not tragic. I'm more alive than you ever will be.
Even once I'm dead and you still breath; I will be more alive.

My mind is a wasteland.
My thoughts are insane; I'm no longer myself.
I feel like I've been taken over by something that wants me dead.

I want a life away from here
             Away from myself.
I want to be free
But the captor is me.
I'm holding myself ransom and I can't pay.

Break me free, won't you? from this prison of my thoughts.
Take me to where I can smile, sing and dream.
I want this fog to be cleared.

Set me free.

Work. Buy. Consume. Die.
Spend your life away.
Meaningless.
Forgotten before you're cold in the ground.

Is this what you want?
      to be a slave to capitalism?

Be free my brothers.
Don't let yourself be shackled.

Be free my sisters.
Don't let yourself be fooled.

                    Live. Breathe. Create. Think.

I keep trying.
But they all keep dying.

I keep trying.
But they all keep leaving.

I keep trying.
But they all stop hoping.

I keep trying.
But they all stop loving.

I keep trying.
But soon I'll be like them.