I didn't cry about you today
               it doesn't mean I love you less
               it doesn't mean I'm trying to forget you
I just don't know what it means to be without you.
I try to cope by pretending you are still alive.

Someone stole you from me.
From us.
How could they take you?

I don't know how to be now that you aren't.

Going nowhere

Glory lost.

Wating until death.

wasting time, wasting space.

Forcing affection and relationships

I feel like Dante betrayed-
        any hope I see turns out to only ruin me further

grinding. hollow. scared.

I can't go on.

I want to love you more than anything.
I want to be with you for the rest of my life.
You are my hopes, dreams, prayers. My unspoken wishes.

I love you more than life.
I want nothing to stand between us.
You are my soul.

I've lost you.
I can't fix this. I'm horrible.
You don't deserve this.
You were the worst, now I don't compare

This road we're on...it won't end well.
I'll **** you
I'll ruin your life.

The life you were rebuilding.
Let me walk away from you.

I love you. More than life.

Everytime I try to smile I think of you.
Everytime I try to laugh I think of you.
Everytime I try to live I think of you.

Of how you've forgotten me.
Of how you've used me.
Of how you've lied to me.

So for now I'll keep drinking, smoking and *******.
So for now I'll keep ignoring the hole you left in my chest.

For now.

Don't you know how much I believe in you? Don't you know how much I care?

Seeing your life fall out of place like this breaks my heart into pieces.

You're not as alone as you think, you're with me every minute.
I'd **** for you. I'd lie for you.
                       steal, scam and cheat.
Anything you would ask for, I would do my best to make it so.
                        Stop ruining yourself.
                         Stop expecting so little.

Be the man I know you are.

There is a place inside of you

Somewhere you've forgotten

It's the place that holds all that you once were.



There lies the dreams you had as a child.

The innocence and laughter.

This is where your strength is hiding.



But now you're jaded.

Bitter and angry.

You've wrecked your mind with drugs.

Ruined your heart with spite.



Please, find your way back there...

How the **** did this happen?
Two decades and nothing to show for it.

           Dreams unrealized.
           Plans forgotten.

Every day I'm closer to dying
And I have nothing to be remembered by.

I have no one. I am no one.

Candles, balloons, cake.
They make me gag.
It's all fake.
Just a distraction from the fact that we are dying and worthless.

**** birthdays.