I feel trapped .
I feel trapped by this walls made by family.
By expectations and the harsh truths of reality.
Such a beautiful word, family.
Yet how can something so divine,
The one thing that is supposed to protect you
And nurture you,
How can it feel so negatively embracing?
Why is it that instead of feeling warmth and love,
I feel anxious,
I feel angry,
I feel hateful.
Anxious from the responsibilities burdening me.
Angry from the lack of freedom that I have.
Hateful for the way they're making me look at family.
And even so, admitting all these feelings
Writing down all these thoughts
They only make me hate myself more.