My vision darkens, I rely on my other senses to carve painful images into my mind like nails on a blackboard.
      I  have been bitten and poisoned.
   Apparently, when bitten by a venomous creature time is of the essence .
      This didn't matter to me because time stopped and made an
                      exception to watch me go through hell.

   Voices of familiar faces whisper into my lingering ear.
              " **** out the poison ya stupid ***** !"
                 " Do it you sad **** ! don't let him do this,Christ what the **** is wrong with you? "

                        
        I froze....

    I remember thinking this vicious venom swallowing me down
        into the cracks of the floorboards was all that depicted us and how happy i was with you.
                 How that terrified me.  
I just wanted to stop, just stop now.
I longed to give in to you and just let me my pale blue eyes roll back into the forever of darkness  in a broken mind.

When I realized what I was thinking , I couldn't let you do this .
I felt like I left to ******* **** stoked bed and I was only there to be laughed at.
I attacked my open wounds with my soft lips,
The forgotten taste of you tainted my flesh.
I ****** and spat your sedative venom out for full long cold year.
My jaws were in so pain.
Finally, I emerged from the cracks of the floorboards but it wasn't a full rehabilitation .
You remain in my lips and within my colorful veins.
A taste I will never forget.
Your venom is my only addiction.