twisted, turned and pulled taut
that's the state of my broken heart
it hurts worse than a gunshot
least expected and ****, it hits hard
subconsciously falling apart
the thought of disregard
simply stones my aching part

parting I simply do not desire
for my being lusts for you, i'm sired
honestly, I think I'm just getting tired
& I remind myself that this soon, will no longer dire
it's hard though, to not feel
to not care for you, it's a cartwheel
going in circles, without directions
false hope my stone
makes me yearn to quickly be on the other side of the globe

far from thee but still,
what my heart desires will eventually perspire

i come to you in my dreams
sorrow and screams
listening to soothing songs
to make it all go away
we're all broken
in some exiguous way

everything that kills me makes me feel alive
your song comes on and i can't help but pry
thinking of everything
i hate this feeling
i wish it would go away

the helplessness drowns me
down and under i falter
emptiness engulfs me
weariness crowns me

fancying someone is tiring
not sure if love persists
but **** i know it exists
i'm not sure if i can hold on
for much longer
for i am starting to crumble
seeking slumber

temporary bliss
we're all so vulnerable

My head is spinning
What am I saying?
This constant equivocacy
Is really not thrilling

It hurts like a ******
But I just stumble
Hiding my emotions
From all these rumble

You're my paradise
That's what I think
But my thoughts of you
Just don't seem to sink

I'm frustrated
That's how I feel
The endless madness
Is tiring and like a drill

Drilling into my head
Deep depths.. I think I'm going insane.
I'm feeling numb..
From all the pain

But I'd rather feel
Than not. It's really a gain.
Though I hope this feeling
Will not sustain
Because my brain is going to be a pane

Dandelions, I'd like to play with them too
Everything is spinning.
I'm not sure I'm sane.
Actually, I just want to
Escape.

How do I say
How I feel
You're an enigma
I can't fiddle
In this night
Of bewilder

How do we know
When we're really in love?
Sometimes
It's really just a tale

The idea of love
Seems so nice
Where we dance along
Under the northern lights
Eventually the dawn will break
And all will come to fade

The idea of love is sweet and pure
But we forget, the darkness it keeps, demure
It's hard to love
A girl like you
Who builds walls that no one knew

I try to enter but to no avail
Your walls are hard as steel
And after all, I'm just a dill
It takes two hands to clap, you'd say
But why does it always seem
Like a facade

The stars continue to shine
As brightly as ever for you my shrine
You give me some kind of happiness
I can't find

Yet I know it will end some way
This happiness is temporary and forged I'd say
I don't even know if it's true
Disillusioned and in love
Such a thrill

People often see
The things that are dure
And sometimes
Not the things that are pure.

//

Uncertainty creeps up on me
I need a sign, to set me free
All I'm doing is playing games
With my heart and my brain

Show me the way
That's my plea
I hope this illusion
Is not just me

Time held still
When I saw you
Our touch gave me chills
And then I finally knew
That I had fallen for you

I know it's wrong
For it's someone else you long
But only if it's true
I'll let go of you

I can't help but wonder
What we'd be like
My thoughts of you
Make me feel anew
I'm not sure if I'm safe
While I enter this dark cave

Of love, lust and lies
Where my heart desires and flies
I'm not sure if I know
How this will go

But for now I just think of you
And know you'll never come true
You ask me about someone else
Which cuts my heart into halves

I don't know what to do
For I've fallen completely
In love
With you

I'm sitting here, all alone
In this solitude I can't fathom
I don't know why, I feel this way
But all I know is dismay

The broken smiles and endless screams
I simply can't let them see
The emptiness inside of me
Because I'm not who they want me to be

Fake smiles and dumb stuff
Life is such a mind craft
I can't fathom the ambiguity
But I hope that one day
I'll be happy

I don't why I feel this way
But anyway
Tomorrow is just a day away