I loved him and all he ever did was hurt me. I try every day to be the person he wants.
How many more times are you going to hurt me?
"Oh here's my heart you can have it for free, you can break it as many times as you want, but who cares about it anyway?"

For some weird reason he is always going to mean something to me
And honestly I feel like an idiot because I love someone who has broken me and will never be mine to love.
I smile and people think I'm fine but  the people who know me really well will know that I'm not okay

I tried to be the person you actually wanted
I tried to make you happy
I tried to mend my heart but the damage is not able to be fixed

What I used to do until I realized it was pointless
One red rose on his desk
One red rose in his locker
One red rose on his bag
But he thought it was someone else who sent them.
Why does this happen to me?!

Gun on the side of my head
Knife near my neck
Dagger by my heart
None of these weapons have hurt me yet
The only one is the knife you stabbed my heart with and the hammer you smashed it to bits with

I feel like I'm waiting for something that is not going to happen
Its hard to forget someone whom you've imagined spending forever with
It only hurts when you try to pretend it doesn't
All he ever did was make me cry to sleep every night

People call me trash and that I was a mistake
My response?
I hopped into a trash can and stayed there for two days.
People tried to get me to come out but all I said was
"Leave me alone, this is my home now."