what did you expect
from a girl who hates herself
did you expect
smiles?
she hates herself
smiles are poisonous

that cloud

he said

will let you ride
will let you soar
will take your sorrows

unspoken rules are unspoken for a reason

there's nothing to do here
some just whine and complain
in bed at the hospital

you make my emotions effervesce
like boiling water
you engulf me
you thaw me

push back the carpet
uncover the trap door
climb in

my mind is torn
you ripped it
with your bare hands
you did a messy job
my mind is torn

you uttered the words
that pushed away gravity
collapsing universes
our hearts
all gone

at school they say
she is oblivious to everything
yet
she knows more about them than they do themselves

what do you hope to attain
a badge that says
'you broke her'?
they only sell them
at the joke shop

disappearing into the fog
she thought that was where to go
she ended up more alone than before

the earth never stood still for you
so why do you stand still for the earth?

there's nowhere my feelings can really go
can you take them from me
look after them
as though they were your own

make a knife out of my bones
sharpen it
and stab me in the heart with it

i tested you
you failed the test
i reached for you
you couldn't take my hand
i changed for you
you changed for me
it rained

maybe
maybe is indefinite
rather like you
and i
maybe we are
maybe we should be

she died
you denied
you searched
you cursed
you bargained
you cried
you accepted
you forgot

the light that never goes out is the light behind your eyes


**blink

are we the people who got left behind
or are we the people who got too far ahead