I have all I want
I look around and appreciate all I have
Most of which given to me
It is easy and comfortable to live
But I sit here with a dense heart
Ready to rid of all this and follow the dreams and fears that are in the back of my head
I can't be challenged when I'm comfortable at home
I don't have a clue where I will go
But any of the roads I see will take me to the place I need to be

I miss it
All of it
The warmth, the touches, and the softening of myself
I melt my energy and inner ego
Letting myself be transparent in the moment
She transitioned me from the sun to the moon
But I could not give her the light she needed
She needed to find her own illumination
But I'll still never forget
What is

Instead of enjoying the simple beauty of nature
We fight over who or what made it
Instead of loving each other on the ground we live on
We fight and **** over territory and resources
Instead of holding hands with each other
We clench our fists
Instead of opening our hearts and minds
We strangle and forever hold onto old ideas
Instead of living from instinct of the body
We live and see by facts and straight lines
Instead of thinking about everything you do and always searching for constant stimulation's or distractions
Enjoy your feelings for they are and love the world with your senses

How many more thoughts until you make your next move?
How many pros and cons?
How long should you decide to decide?
Let be and stop killing the great spontaneousness of life
Only then can you truly understand the good and bad
Be great but with many hard times
Be unique but with much resentment from others
This life is set in such a way where it is better than any dream you could have
Only here can you be close to death but feel more alive
To lose everything then gain everything
To be a the person you think about everyday right now
A whole infinite journey...
Just for you

Again on my mind
Here goes another poem to unwind
I can still feel her in my chest
We did what hurt but was truly best
We grew together
But in the end we both needed to be better
To grow stronger while being alone
It was time to be our own
Don't think I forgot that last kiss
As if I could even resist
And when time has passed
Maybe we can give each other a friendship that will last

Same problems and same complaints
Different mouth and different person
All wish to get better but won't be better
They want joy but never give joy
Who want to get by rather than fly over all
Unwilling to adapt to the new environment
The play is still the same
Overcome or become extinct

The worry and fear in you of going into that empty coffin
Do you really believe? Or is it that you ought to believe?
You like being you and fear that you will never express yourself again
But you take a form of energy
Remember in school when they said energy can not be created nor destroyed
Why that is you too
Afraid of never having another experience
How could it be? What did you fear before you were even born?
It is the same experience and not that empty black box you imagine
A block of ice does not fear of turning into water
Nor does the water fear of turning into the mist that is all around you
Life and Nature knows nothing of your silly questions
Give yourself your own permission to feel and live spontaneously
and have a good dance on this life's stage

We grow
We are not made
We can not be assembled
We complex ourselves mentally and physically
From seed to tree
To leaves and apples
Unique with feelings
They can't be put into words
Only expressed
Make the history of mankind a great one
More love less hate
More expression and less depression
I don't know me without you and you can't know you without me
I can't see my own eyes without a mirror
What lies behind my eyes?
I feel myself beat my heart and fall into the feeling of love
But never in my mind do I decide to
There is nothing to say, only to feel
Be love and receive love
Know kindness and receive kindness
Be true to yourself and receive people who will be true to you
For today you possess the people in your life based upon the person you are
The better you holds better rewards
Never stop growing

Find your candle
Light it
Show everyone how bright it is
Some will come to blow out your light
They may fail or succeed
But you still are holding the candle and the matches
Don't hide it under the table or in the corner but where it illuminates the whole room
Let it be yours and let others find you from the darkness
Then and always will they protect it
Light someones world and they will light up yours

Her face comes up when I replace my negative thoughts
All I could need simply fades
Distant, but still I know the scent of her where I can almost taste and feel
The senses are as real as when we dream
I do not suppress myself but allow to express in me that which comes from me
For if I retain it would end in eternal pain
This is not to obtain or gain but to make amends
To my heart for what my mind has done

I won't be controlled
Freedom is what I say it is!
I do as I wish as so others
For no man can leash me
I am the Shepherd of my own self
Then how is it that I obey the voice above?
Preached by man that he rules all and we are to follow
To be ruled by man but not the creator
Though we are all made in reflection of gods image
So must we all rule? Why am I cast down below ruled by my own image?
Am I not that? Which is god and god itself is me
Are we all me and god and each other?
Who am I?

The dead will laugh
For they know what is in the aftermath
What is left to be my own
In a world not ever completely shown
With an attacking ego
It must be dueled with the unspeakable feelings of the body to let go
All that which makes I unique
Invites me to grow or sink
For my mind will only calculate and analyze
That which can not be theorized
No words or sounds can be found
So it is to be and allow yourself to be the ground